No more part 2

I'm praying for you Sharon. You can make it through this storm, with God guiding you. I recommend this song to Annie on her post but I think you would be blessed by it too, if you haven't already heard it. "Thy Will" by Hillary Scott.

But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days. People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good, treacherous, rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God— having a form of godliness but denying its power. Have nothing to do with such people. They are the kind who worm their way into homes and gain control over gullible women, who are loaded down with sins and are swayed by all kinds of evil desires, always learning but never able to come to a knowledge of the truth. Just as Jannes and Jambres opposed Moses, so also these teachers oppose the truth. They are men of depraved minds, who, as far as the faith is concerned, are rejected. But they will not get very far because, as in the case of those men, their folly will be clear to everyone. You, however, know all about my teaching, my way of life, my purpose, faith, patience, love, endurance, persecutions, sufferings—what kinds of things happened to me in Antioch, Iconium and Lystra, the persecutions I endured. Yet the Lord rescued me from all of them. In fact, everyone who wants to live a godly life in Christ Jesus will be persecuted, while evildoers and impostors will go from bad to worse, deceiving and being deceived. But as for you, continue in what you have learned and have become convinced of, because you know those from whom you learned it, and how from infancy you have known the Holy Scriptures, which are able to make you wise for salvation through faith in Christ Jesus. All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the servant of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work. (2 Timothy 3:1-17 NIV)

I am so sorry to be saying this as I know a lot of you are in divorce procedure right now, but God has been convicting me heavily to start the process too. I don't want to, so please for strength and clarity for me. I received this verse this morning and believe it's speaking about Chris. He has lied and been deceptive, but especially yesterday, to try to prove a point that I should stay with him, he started sending me YouTube videos that he said have convicted him and trying to beg me to help him reach God again, yet when I got home his actions were completely emotion based. He wouldn't speak to me because I wouldn't speak to him and he stormed out when I did not lay down in the bed with him. He is not acting with Gods actions but he is trying to claim he is saved. I don't want to be deceived and I don't want to make rash emotional decisions, but I am convinced more and more that he is lying and the enemy is using pretty words in his mouth to deceive me and hold me in this bad place. God has made promises to me and I hold those. I don't believe he will always be this way, but I also don't believe he can ever find God while I am in the picture. Please pray for me and any godly insight would be very welcome as I am praying over this

Sharon, I feel for you and I'm going to pray for you but I want to share something, when I was going thru some problems with my husband I asked God to do something because I couldn't take it anymore and few weeks later my husband moved out, at first I was shocked, surprised but I was at peace, it wasn't the answer I needed but now that I look back God used it for a purpose and I'm glad it happened, I became closer to God and my husband changed so much, he is becoming the husband I always wanted. I know every stand is different but I know God will do the work, don't give up !!! Maybe you guys need some time apart, but don't file for divorce, remember the toughest challenges bring the greatest rewards.

Sharon I am praying for you. I too struggle with the idea of divorce but I don't know what God's plan is for you. I know He can work in mysterious ways. I will be praying for clarity for you my friend.

I'm praying for you sister.

Sharon,
I admire you for your strength and steadfastness to follow God's will and call. I know God called me to follow through and sign the paperwork. As much as I didn't want to, as much as it mentally and emotionally broke me to, I have felt called to it. I have faith that God will rebuild our marriages. Restore to us the lost love and time that has been taken by the enemy. That is how I have been able to lay my head down and sleep since this all began.

I am naturally a doubting Thomas. I hear God's voice, and then wonder if I heard what I heard, or if I hear what I want. I admire that you hear him speaking to you, and can have such surety. God bless you sister. May he bless your faith, your steadfastness, and courage. Trust him and follow as you have.

Mary Amen sister you do not lie! Eric thank you for your encouragement. Everyone thank you so much for your prayers. My war room was so full of the spirit when Chris got home. I had Gods presence with me like he was sitting behind me and touching my hair. It was overwhelming and I was listening to the lion and the lamb. Our pastor prayed a prayer over us last week that the lion of Judah come in and break all the bonds of the enemy and I was praying this again over us when Chris got home. We went to the kitchen we prayed together that God guide us and speak through us. I handed him the papers and he told me he knew that this was coming. He has a feeling about it earlier in the day (I told him God was speaking to him). We went back and forth discussing the situation with the girlfriend, with me being judge mental, with him lying over stupid things. We went to my war room. We prayed more. We read some scripture together. By the end of it all, the papers were abandoned on the kitchen table and we went to church together. He told me he wants to prove it to me, but I don't have to believe that he is transforming. He knows he is because he can feel it in his heart. He wants to be different and not just for me. He wants to know God better. I was not completely sure until we got to church and it was a guest pastor and the sermon was about forgiveness. He spoke directly to us - he said maybe you have a spouse who has lied and betrayed you. Or maybe you are the spouse who has lied or betrayed. Remember Christ was killed by us and God forgave us, so if God can forgive us for that, you can forgive your spouse or yourself. You can not move forward and do Gods will if you can not forgive. And I felt the weight lifted off of me and Gods presence around me again, but this time I felt it around both of us and Chris sunk his head down like he was praying and I began asking God to light the tongue of fire over his head and suffocate his spirit with His influence so that nothing else can remain. Chris said afterwards that this was a test of faith for me because I did not want to do this, but I did it and he said he will go to the every mans battle seminar. He realizes the need to be friends with godly men if he is going to learn how to be the spiritual head of our family and that I can help him with a lot, but I can't teach him how to be the man we need. I am feeling so blessed and released. Thank you God for taking this from me again because I was willing to submit. You are so good