Post by Sharon on Feb 17, 2019 4:18:33 GMT -5
God has been doing so much in my life. It’s been so subtle, but looking back, I realize how far He has taken me from where I was.
So I am still leading DivorceCare and that is going well. I’m also leading a small group in my home for Standers. I can’t believe how God just dropped each of these ladies into my path. None of them came from the same place. I love how crazy God likes to be lol.
It’s a lot and I don’t know how to explain everything honestly. God has called me to take up writing again. I heard the call and had it confirmed in several ways, so I’ve started again. I’m almost finished with my book. One of the amazing ways God confirmed that He wants me to be writing though is that RMM published one of my devotions for their daily devotional that that email. It’s here if y’all are interested.
www.rejoiceministries.org/devotion/46045
Another thing God told me Jan 3 was that He trusts me and He is recalculating my timeline. That He intends for Chris to be home and us to be remarried by Feb 2020. I know it’s really soon and I’m sure I sound crazy claiming that and I felt crazy believing it, but He asked me to put my hope on the line. Similar to when He asked Abraham to pick up and go to where He shows him. I felt God calling me to give him my hopes for my future and gamble it on Him.
He told me to put the downpayment on the 2020 love like you mean it cruise with FamilyLife. I’m sure y’all remember it’s the last trip we took together before the sudden divorce. He wants me to trust Him that He will do what He promised to do in this timeline and honestly it felt like my divorce all over again. Guys it’s been easy to a degree for me to believe God is good and He has plans to restore us and to put that out in the future and not worry, but to put it on a timeline means I actually have to believe in Him to do some fast work and it’s frightening. It rocked me for a minute, but I said yes. I booked it when I did not have the money to pay the downpayment. God immediately confirmed it was His plan though. Literally the moment I finished booking the cruise, my room mate paid her rent and I was able to cover the cost.
6 days later, I was getting ready for church. The Lord and I were chit chatting and at some point I said “God just a minute. I’ve been listening to your still small voice for a long time and don’t think I am ungrateful, but God sometimes it’s hard to believe all of this is you and often I believe it is me. Could you let me hear you in a loud audible voice?” And I didn’t hear him, so I let it go and went to church. I was so early which I never am, but my pastor came on stage before worship began. He said “I have a prophetic word for someone. You know the story of the prodigal son. 2019 is the year of salvation - the year the prodigal comes home.” And yeah I busted out crying, because of course God heard me ask for an audible voice and here it is! So yes, I am expecting huge things from God for 2019 and I have no doubt that He is going to do what He has promised to do and it will happen this year!
He gave me 5 words for 2019. Transform, Renew, Revive, Breakthrough, Restore. These words He revealed to me will be the process he takes Chris through: Transform - He will pour our his wrath and bring this man to the bottom. This has been confirmed to me several times that God is doing this right now. Of course, Chris and I haven’t spoken hardly, so I don’t see what is happening. I know this mask is up. He is giving off this visage that he is happy. The sad truth is that he has isolated himself from everyone that actually loves him. He skipped his daughters birthday and instead flew to another country to visit his latest of girlfriends. His daughter, now 12, laid into him. Bravo to her lol. But yeah he has isolated himself. Doesn’t see his mom or sister, his daughter, me or my kids. Keeps up with Facebook and friends and doesn’t associate with those who truly love him. It’s a mask. Transform means God is going to remove and destroy the mask. Renew means He will bring Chris up from the sin and shame. He will heal his wounds and draw him close. Revive means the Holy Spirit will come upon Chris. Breakthrough means Chris will step back in front of me and assume the role in our family again. And Restored...we will be remarried and have a new covenant. I am not supposed to be involved until a man, filled with the Holy Spirit, is standing in front of me. The word God has given me until Breakthrough happens is Release.
So I’ve been taking everything to Him. I don’t want to get into all the details, but just giving up all of my thoughts, hurts, desires. I literally saw myself putting my desire for my husband in Gods hands and heard Him say “I will give this back to you when the time is right.” He is so good.
Sorry this update was so long. Honestly I could be going on and on and on, but I will post more another time. I love you guys and you’re constantly in my prayers. I am really grateful to God for you guys. I went from being alone with my promise to having y’all and have been adding and adding to those Standers I pray for. God knew I needed you. Thank you God for y’all.
So I am still leading DivorceCare and that is going well. I’m also leading a small group in my home for Standers. I can’t believe how God just dropped each of these ladies into my path. None of them came from the same place. I love how crazy God likes to be lol.
It’s a lot and I don’t know how to explain everything honestly. God has called me to take up writing again. I heard the call and had it confirmed in several ways, so I’ve started again. I’m almost finished with my book. One of the amazing ways God confirmed that He wants me to be writing though is that RMM published one of my devotions for their daily devotional that that email. It’s here if y’all are interested.
www.rejoiceministries.org/devotion/46045
Another thing God told me Jan 3 was that He trusts me and He is recalculating my timeline. That He intends for Chris to be home and us to be remarried by Feb 2020. I know it’s really soon and I’m sure I sound crazy claiming that and I felt crazy believing it, but He asked me to put my hope on the line. Similar to when He asked Abraham to pick up and go to where He shows him. I felt God calling me to give him my hopes for my future and gamble it on Him.
He told me to put the downpayment on the 2020 love like you mean it cruise with FamilyLife. I’m sure y’all remember it’s the last trip we took together before the sudden divorce. He wants me to trust Him that He will do what He promised to do in this timeline and honestly it felt like my divorce all over again. Guys it’s been easy to a degree for me to believe God is good and He has plans to restore us and to put that out in the future and not worry, but to put it on a timeline means I actually have to believe in Him to do some fast work and it’s frightening. It rocked me for a minute, but I said yes. I booked it when I did not have the money to pay the downpayment. God immediately confirmed it was His plan though. Literally the moment I finished booking the cruise, my room mate paid her rent and I was able to cover the cost.
6 days later, I was getting ready for church. The Lord and I were chit chatting and at some point I said “God just a minute. I’ve been listening to your still small voice for a long time and don’t think I am ungrateful, but God sometimes it’s hard to believe all of this is you and often I believe it is me. Could you let me hear you in a loud audible voice?” And I didn’t hear him, so I let it go and went to church. I was so early which I never am, but my pastor came on stage before worship began. He said “I have a prophetic word for someone. You know the story of the prodigal son. 2019 is the year of salvation - the year the prodigal comes home.” And yeah I busted out crying, because of course God heard me ask for an audible voice and here it is! So yes, I am expecting huge things from God for 2019 and I have no doubt that He is going to do what He has promised to do and it will happen this year!
He gave me 5 words for 2019. Transform, Renew, Revive, Breakthrough, Restore. These words He revealed to me will be the process he takes Chris through: Transform - He will pour our his wrath and bring this man to the bottom. This has been confirmed to me several times that God is doing this right now. Of course, Chris and I haven’t spoken hardly, so I don’t see what is happening. I know this mask is up. He is giving off this visage that he is happy. The sad truth is that he has isolated himself from everyone that actually loves him. He skipped his daughters birthday and instead flew to another country to visit his latest of girlfriends. His daughter, now 12, laid into him. Bravo to her lol. But yeah he has isolated himself. Doesn’t see his mom or sister, his daughter, me or my kids. Keeps up with Facebook and friends and doesn’t associate with those who truly love him. It’s a mask. Transform means God is going to remove and destroy the mask. Renew means He will bring Chris up from the sin and shame. He will heal his wounds and draw him close. Revive means the Holy Spirit will come upon Chris. Breakthrough means Chris will step back in front of me and assume the role in our family again. And Restored...we will be remarried and have a new covenant. I am not supposed to be involved until a man, filled with the Holy Spirit, is standing in front of me. The word God has given me until Breakthrough happens is Release.
So I’ve been taking everything to Him. I don’t want to get into all the details, but just giving up all of my thoughts, hurts, desires. I literally saw myself putting my desire for my husband in Gods hands and heard Him say “I will give this back to you when the time is right.” He is so good.
Sorry this update was so long. Honestly I could be going on and on and on, but I will post more another time. I love you guys and you’re constantly in my prayers. I am really grateful to God for you guys. I went from being alone with my promise to having y’all and have been adding and adding to those Standers I pray for. God knew I needed you. Thank you God for y’all.
