Calling my prayer warriors

Hey sister. Thank you for your prayers. I saw something AMAZING happen on Oct 22nd! I don't know if yall remember, my sister had a child 13 years ago that she gave up for adoption. She has mourned over that loss for years and wanted a relationship with this child for so long. It was supposed to be an "open adoption", meaning the communication was supposed to be open. That didn't end up being the case to my sisters dismay. We haven't even known if the child knows that she is adopted. Regardless, my sister prays for this sweet girl. She sends a birthday package every year.
Oct 22nd, my sister got a letter in the mail from her daughter! 13 years old and she's written to my sister! She wants to get to know her and our family! She was excited to see she has two baby brothers! Isn't God so amazingly good?! There was no way that this could have happened, and yet God made it happen! HE IS SO GOOD! I couldn't stop crying and it was so encouraging. God is so good.

Well the next day, Oct 23rd, I felt God pressing on my heart to tell Chris that I still love him. I of course said no! I don't want to get burned, but God kept burdening me, until I finally relented and called Chris on Tuesday and told him that I still love him and he doesn't have to tell me it back, I just thought he should know. By the way...he has another new girlfriend that he has moved in with him (she is from Europe...yeah from his most recent deployment). It's just inconvenient for me to be saying that to him. His answer "ohhhh...kay...". I said okay bye! and hung up. I wasn't upset. I just kind of laughed it off. It obviously disturbed him.

But the next day he was texting me "Why did you have to say that? It's got me thinking thoughts I shouldn't think!" and I'm laughing about the whole thing. The conversation was me telling him that if he wants to start something between us again, he needs to know God. I can't be with a man who isn't in love with the Lord. Him responding that he isn't in love with me...just attracted to me. Me telling him that attraction isn't enough to hold us together and that I won't be the other woman. Him answering oh of course he wouldn't dream of ever cheating on someone and that of course is a boundary of his! Yeah...I'm still laughing over the conversation.

I haven't reached out to him. Not at all. Yet he has found an excuse to text almost every day this week. He just keeps finding excuses to get in touch. I don't know what it is about, except that we're obviously all over his mind. Whatever it is....I am not even worried about it anymore!

Have yall heart this song Just Give Me Jesus? I think it's by Unspoken. Man...this song is so where I am right now! I felt like God was telling me this is where He is going to bring Chris to also. I just can't wait. I burst into tears when I heard this song. I can't wait for Chris to get there. I am so there!
I worked so hard, trying to open every door. Searched near and far, turning over every stone. I closed my eyes, still I find no rest. No rest for a restless heart. All I've been chasing, putting my faith in. Let it fade, let it break into pieces. Just give me Jesus.

I am excited. Whatever God wants to do, in the time He needs it done. It's all good! Just give me Jesus! I am set! There's nothing I desire that can't be found in You! You're everything that I've ever needed! I know He is good. He is going to keep all of his promises. He's begun a good work in my life. He will break Chris and humble the man, so that he falls in love with the Lord. He will trade his heart of stone for a heart of flesh. Chris will love the Lord and then he will come home. And I am excited to see God's hand on that, but I will wait for HIS time.

He's been doing some amazing things in my ministry. The Lord gave me the words to write a card to one of my aunts who has just lost her husband. She has been isolating and invited my parents this last weekend to come visit her with my son. She told then that she just wanted to stay in hiding, but that she got this letter and every point in it was just hitting her heart so hard. It was God speaking directly to her in this letter and then she looked to see it was the letter I had written her. Thank you Jesus for using that moment! And I am so encouraged too, because my parents have believed so much that my stand is foolish and a waste of time, but how can you deny what the Lord has spoken to me about my future, when He is so actively using this trial for His glory and His kingdom? It's not just my aunt! God has called me to begin a standers group in Colorado Springs. I was nervous and I still am, but I asked the 4 women I was hoping to start it with me and they all said yes and we are meeting tomorrow! Please pray that God's hand would be on this! Rejoice Marriage Ministries is prepared to list our group as part of their ministry too. I am so honored and I am just praying over this group that all goes well. God has blessed me as a leader in the Divorce Care too. I am seeing so many peoples hearts being softened to the Lord and so much overflowing joy coming from the worlds worst pain. He is so incredibly good! That's really all I can say about it! He overwhelms me with how amazing He is and all the glory goes to the Lord! He's building the ministry out of me that He promised He was going to. And as I am seeing that first promise begin to blossom and produce fruit, I know the other promises are on the horizon. Chris will be saved. Our marriage will be restored. Praise God! You are so good!