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Post by Sharon on Jan 24, 2018 14:38:40 GMT -5
Hey guys! Yeah me again needing prayer lol.
I was reading in Isaiah this morning and read that God was going to reveal something new to me and then when I was reading, felt strongly that God was calling me to move forward now with the divorce. I don't know why I felt this way, but the more I read, the more steadfast I feel in that thought. Will y'all be praying for clear confirmation for me and direction for the next steps?
I do have to say I think this is right. Chris said something to me last week about "if I'm back at that house by next year..." and that has stuck with me. Clearly, right now his head is in this place that this is a temporary break up in which he will have all the fun and partying, sex, and dating he wants and he will come back to his back burner wife next year when he has it out of his system. I truly believe that is where his mind is right now. Well my mind is finished. This is over. I don't have the affection that I used to for him and he is being completely unloving, which is not just a desire from me and the kids but an actual need. We need to be loved. And God has been giving us all the love that we need and we are thriving. Not just surviving, but doing so well. I realize that we don't need Chris's love but if we get it, it is all these things added. I don't know really where his head is, but it's clearly still on himself and not on us.
Now I'm not saying all of this to justify this decision. Because honestly it scared me when I read it this morning, but I am starting to think more and more that it is a good decision. That these months God has asked me to be still have been God giving Chris a chance to step up and do what he needs to do to repair his relationship with God and with us, but Chris has been stubbornly, willfully resisting God with everything in him. So now God is making a change and doing something different.
Anyways, can y'all be praying for confirmation and clarity for me.
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Post by Eric W. on Jan 24, 2018 14:56:05 GMT -5
Father, I come to you burdened and weary. My heart is heavy for my sister! She hears you calling her to divorce. A word, a thing, a loophole that we all fear. Lord, I ask your hand of guidance, your mind of wisdom, to show her the path. Open the door for this if it be your will. If this is a trick or she is being deceived stop this in its tracks. Lord, let her know that she is walking the path you have set before her and that she is following the map you have provided. Give her peace and comfort in the decision to follow you. I ask these things in Jesus, holy name.
I am reminded to something from our service Sunday. One of our bullet points from the service was "Don't settle for just a blessing, crave a full on transformation miracle !" Having him back home this time next year may be a blessing, but by accepting that you could be missing out on a full on transformation miracle.
I will continue to have you in prayers sister.
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Post by Sharon on Jan 25, 2018 17:41:11 GMT -5
Thank you brother for your prayers. Thank you all!
I prayed for confirmation and I got it. I am going ahead with the rest of the paperwork now. I feel peaceful about that decision and now suddenly anxious about what to say to Chris or how to say it, but God is going to provide the right moment and the right words, so while I am finishing this paperwork, I will wait on the Lord for the rest of his timing and wisdom in all that.
Guys, you've known me long enough and see the blatant struggles well enough to know I'm not doing this hastily. I am doing it persistently after Gods will. He is going to use this and I have no doubt of that. This feels like an Abraham moment when God asked him to sacrifice his only son. I don't believe that God will put a stop to this though like He did with Abraham, but I know He is going to use this.
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Post by Sharon on Jan 27, 2018 18:59:21 GMT -5
I told him I was gonna finish filing the paperwork with the court house. He said alright, he was thinking the same thing.
God what are you doing here? I can't take this emotional wreckage anymore. This does hurt. It hurts
I just heard you say to my Spirit "We are back on track". Okay God let's go! I trust you! Full speed ahead!
God you gave me the story of Abraham and Isaac and how you asked him to sacrifice his only son. The son through which you had made his promise. And he was the only son. Abraham knew that giving up the boy meant that by earthly standards he was giving up on his promise. But he trusted that you had a plan. Maybe it wasn't by this boy that you intended to bring the promise. Maybe you would do a second insane miracle and bring another son. He didn't understand it. But he gave him up to you and said "you made me a promise. Your word is truth and I trust you. If not this way, then another way." Well I am doing the same thing. Giving up this marriage means it's over. What hope is there for restoration when we are getting divorced? But God you made me a promise and I trust you. If not this way, then another way. Where there is no way, you make a way. I trust you God.
You are reiterating your promises to me again and again. You will do what you promised. Not today, not tomorrow. Maybe not this year. Maybe not 5, 10, or 20 years. But I have faith that you will do exactly what you promised to do and that this desire in my heart will be filled. You will not forsake me. You will remain with me.
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Post by Adrienne on Feb 6, 2018 21:42:44 GMT -5
Sharon, I have been praying about this for you and Chris. How are things going? Have you gone ahead and finished filing the paperwork? Are you still feeling that connection of trust with God? I know I struggle often with doubt so I want to encourage you to keep pressing into His word and praying for His will be be clear to you. I greatly admire your conviction to His will and I will continue praying for you to keep leaning on Him!
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Post by Sharon on Feb 10, 2018 3:48:39 GMT -5
Girl, God has been on the move like crazy in all of this recently! I'm not even trying to understand what He is doing, because who can really understand Gods plans?! Lol but yes, I'm still planning to finish the paperwork. Chris has been deployed (the vegas deployment again), so we haven't been able to sit down and finish the paperwork yet. I think we will do it on Monday. He just got back to Colorado today, but he works the weekend. I did finish the parenting class for the court though. God did something really amazing yesterday. I still don't really understand it, but like I said I don't think I need to. Basically, my son has been texting with Chris. We figured out it's a good way for him to feel like he has that open line of communication with his dad. But he sent a message I had written in a note and copied that I did not intend Chris to see.     I am not sure how to feel about all of that. I know for sure that God allowed that message to be sent to him. It's never something I would have said myself to him, but my son accidentally sent it. He's the one that texted he didn't mean to send that and bye lol. I also know that even though I cried a little bit after that text, I felt and still feel such a peace. I know God is doing something in that mans heart. The court hearing is February 21. Id really appreciate y'all keeping us in prayer over the next few weeks. I don't know what God has planned here, but I know He is doing something and I trust Him. |
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Post by Sharon on Feb 10, 2018 14:19:11 GMT -5
Again today, God on the move! My sister was sitting at a restaurant waiting for her food and overheard some Air Force people talking about Chris! The girl said "who? Jones?" And the guy goes "yeah". She said "wow that is sad. Doesn't he have a baby too?" The guy says "yeah, he has 2 or 3 kids" and she goes "wow that is really sad". The guy says "yeah and he's going on the Korea deployment too." She says "wow...he is going to get a disease" and the guy says "if he doesn't already have one" and they started laughing and changed the topic. I don't know exactly why God wanted me to know that, but it tells me the ground from under him is starting to crumble. I mean the guys at his job don't even look at him right anymore. He's lost his wife, kids, home, friends, respect at his job. He's losing everything because of his selfishness. God is doing something. It's only a matter of time before this man hits rock bottom. God, you're on the move. I don't have to understand your work. I see your hand moving and I trust you. That is enough.
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Post by Sharon on Feb 12, 2018 12:13:03 GMT -5
The fog is lifting. The mist is clearing
The enemy is gone. His voice no longer heard across the hills
The chaos is clear. Bodies scattered across the land
And somehow in that fog there was protection
It was scary, but it was safe
But now that the mist is clearing
I can start to see Gods hand moving
In the hearts of me and of men
This battle is ended
The aftermath begins
God is moving. His spirit sweeps along the valleys and the hills
It moves into the crags and the recesses
It saturates the land in his presence
And those who remain cry out
Holy, holy, holy is the Lord God almighty
Who delivered me from my enemies
Who turned and drove me this way when I would have gone that
Surely that path lead to death
And though this path was perilous and treacherous
This is the way that led to life
Through the hard places and the rocky ground
His spirit was with me
He never left me
He whispered to my soul and somehow my soul heard him
He lifted my foot on step at a time
And brought me to a place of refuge
I will praise the Lord God almighty
The true God who was and is and is to come
The lies and the chains are broken off
And as the fog clears, I can see. I am set free
Please pray for me if you think of me over the next few weeks. Chris is coming down today to do final paperwork with me and sign it at the court house. Our hearing is February 21, next Wednesday. I'm broken up and anxious over this. I don't want it, but Lord your will be done. I can see His protection in this. After all the strange things God has shown me recently, I know He is moving and I am willing to participate and do my part. Even though my part is hard. I feel like Jesus in the garden right now, just before he was going to die. He knew his fate. I know mine. He asked God if it was possible to take this cup from him. God, if it is possible, take this cup from me. Yet not my will, but yours be done.
I wrote this poem this morning as I was praying.
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Post by Adrienne on Feb 12, 2018 22:15:27 GMT -5
I"m praying for you, Sharon.
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Post by tkk2 on Feb 13, 2018 6:23:52 GMT -5
Stand firm on God's promises....be strong.
If you remember, i sat in divorce court that day with Dana....and for some legal reason (that escapes me now) our court was "continued" (of course, we all know it was Gods hand).
Then, 3 months later (2 nights before divorce was final) he came over. We had barely talked in those months. He didnt want to be divorced and wanted to start counseling, which is where we are now, a couple of years later.
I hope this encourages you on many levels....my prayers are with you both.
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Post by Sharon on Feb 16, 2018 10:28:03 GMT -5
Stand firm on God's promises....be strong. If you remember, i sat in divorce court that day with Dana....and for some legal reason (that escapes me now) our court was "continued" (of course, we all know it was Gods hand). Then, 3 months later (2 nights before divorce was final) he came over. We had barely talked in those months. He didnt want to be divorced and wanted to start counseling, which is where we are now, a couple of years later. I hope this encourages you on many levels....my prayers are with you both. TK, this encourages me and gives me so much to think about. I'm posting another post in here today. I'm at a crossroad and I knew I would get here, but I didn't realize how difficult this decision would be. Please keep praying for me and I will make a new post here soon. |
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