Post by Eric W. on Nov 12, 2017 19:15:02 GMT -5
So, I have been struggling the past few weeks. Our anniversary was last month and it was rough as I think I posted around that time. I have been very busy at work and trying to finish up my degree. Speaking of work, I have been talking with my area supervisor and he is trying to get me a promotion and sizeable pay raise. We are waiting for those higher in command to make a budget decision on that to move forward. So I have been, I won't say stressing, but more like obsessing over that as well.
I did find a way to message with my stepdaughter to talk to her more often which is really good. My prodigal messaged me about a week ago asking if I could get my things out of the attic because my daughter is asking to have the attic finished and/or carpeted for her to do tumbling practice. I told her I would try to do it Friday afternoon or today after church. Ended up not being able to Friday and was dreading doing it today. I guess the whole not wanting that closure I guess.
IT turned into a good thing. Not great, but good. Her first husband is still there, and he even helped bring a recliner she offered to me today downstairs while we were bringing stuff over to my place. They had actually brought it all downstairs to the front porch before I even got over there, and then her, her sister, my stepdaughter, nice, her mom and dad all helped me load it up, bring it over to my place and unload on the screened in porch, for me to sort, before bringing it in.
It was good seeing all of them. Her sister and my niece I don't get to see terribly often. And her sister made a comment about my beard. (side note I started growing a beard at the end of September/first of October) She wanted to feel it, and told me it was soft and my prodigal made a comment to the fact of her saying it looked really good.
After it all, I sorted though it and brought what I wanted to keep in and took the rest to landfill before they closed today. I sent her a message thanking her for them bringing it downstairs for me, that it was a lot more than what I remembered. We messaged back and forth for a bit, and the conversation just kind of went to a stalling point. And after about 15 minutes she sent another message that she really loved the beard.
It's something really small in the scope of things, but it definitely brightened my day. Especially after finding some of the stuff from the attic. Like the first Valentines day gift she got me. (A notebook comparing me to cartoon movie characters that we watched with my stepdaughter. Like Carl the little old man from Up who loved his wife even after she was gone, Gru from Despicable Me who adopted three little girls without know what to expect but loving them anyway, to Arthur from Arthur Christmas, to Ralph from Wreck it Ralph. All really sweet and really thoughtful.) I cried for a while after finding that, and I'm crying now typing about it.
God is good, all the time. My pastor actually preached over unanswered Prayers last Wednesday. That the unknown things we have to leave to him, but the things that are revealed to us in scripture, in prophecy, and through the Holy Ghost are what we should focus on and trust in.
I also want to brag a minute. We did a Biggest Loser type challenge at work. Just the people in my department, and Friday was supposed to be the last weigh in. 2 people haven't weighed in yet and they are supposed to do that Monday, but in the 2 months we did this (Sept 8th - Nov 10) I lost 24 lbs. Of the 2 people left to weigh in one isn't a contender, but the other missed the last few weigh in's so he is a wild card. Either way I am proud of being able to do something I have never really been able to do in the past for any length of time.
I did find a way to message with my stepdaughter to talk to her more often which is really good. My prodigal messaged me about a week ago asking if I could get my things out of the attic because my daughter is asking to have the attic finished and/or carpeted for her to do tumbling practice. I told her I would try to do it Friday afternoon or today after church. Ended up not being able to Friday and was dreading doing it today. I guess the whole not wanting that closure I guess.
IT turned into a good thing. Not great, but good. Her first husband is still there, and he even helped bring a recliner she offered to me today downstairs while we were bringing stuff over to my place. They had actually brought it all downstairs to the front porch before I even got over there, and then her, her sister, my stepdaughter, nice, her mom and dad all helped me load it up, bring it over to my place and unload on the screened in porch, for me to sort, before bringing it in.
It was good seeing all of them. Her sister and my niece I don't get to see terribly often. And her sister made a comment about my beard. (side note I started growing a beard at the end of September/first of October) She wanted to feel it, and told me it was soft and my prodigal made a comment to the fact of her saying it looked really good.
After it all, I sorted though it and brought what I wanted to keep in and took the rest to landfill before they closed today. I sent her a message thanking her for them bringing it downstairs for me, that it was a lot more than what I remembered. We messaged back and forth for a bit, and the conversation just kind of went to a stalling point. And after about 15 minutes she sent another message that she really loved the beard.
It's something really small in the scope of things, but it definitely brightened my day. Especially after finding some of the stuff from the attic. Like the first Valentines day gift she got me. (A notebook comparing me to cartoon movie characters that we watched with my stepdaughter. Like Carl the little old man from Up who loved his wife even after she was gone, Gru from Despicable Me who adopted three little girls without know what to expect but loving them anyway, to Arthur from Arthur Christmas, to Ralph from Wreck it Ralph. All really sweet and really thoughtful.) I cried for a while after finding that, and I'm crying now typing about it.
God is good, all the time. My pastor actually preached over unanswered Prayers last Wednesday. That the unknown things we have to leave to him, but the things that are revealed to us in scripture, in prophecy, and through the Holy Ghost are what we should focus on and trust in.
I also want to brag a minute. We did a Biggest Loser type challenge at work. Just the people in my department, and Friday was supposed to be the last weigh in. 2 people haven't weighed in yet and they are supposed to do that Monday, but in the 2 months we did this (Sept 8th - Nov 10) I lost 24 lbs. Of the 2 people left to weigh in one isn't a contender, but the other missed the last few weigh in's so he is a wild card. Either way I am proud of being able to do something I have never really been able to do in the past for any length of time.
