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Post by Eric W. on Oct 7, 2017 16:00:08 GMT -5
So, today was, is, or should be my anniversary. I am not sure what it is at this moment...
I texted my prodigal wife today to ask if she was home. When I got a response back, she said she was at the beach. I had a small gift and a card that I had gotten for her. I told her when she got home to check the front door, and wished her a Happy Anniversary. I took the gift and card to the front door and left it there.
She texted me back after about half an hour and told OK, and that all she could think to say was she was sorry. A minute or two later, that I didn't have to get her anything.
Today is hard and I feel a million miles away from the world right now. Like I am watching a TV show. I feel lost, and forgotten by the world.
I still worry that I am standing on stubbornness and not God's will. Sure I have moments of peace where I am doing something at church, or helping someone and I can feel peaceful warmth all around me, but my stand I always feel like I am struggling tooth and nail.
I am not verbal on here much, but I am still checking in and praying.
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Post by Sharon on Oct 7, 2017 21:48:31 GMT -5
Hey Eric, I listened to this amazing sermon today and was actually thinking of you during it. I know it's a little long, but please listen to this when you have the time. www.victory.church/media-archive/2017618-designer-of-hopeBrother, I know this is hard and we often think we are standing in vain and when God? When is your promise going to be fulfilled? But in those moments, remember Abraham. Paul says his body was as good as dead and yet, facing the circumstances of his current situation and realizing that Hope was lost, he chose to have faith in God and not waver. He knew that God was bigger then any circumstance, even his 100 year old body as good as dead. He knew that when God made a promise, He is trustworthy and will keep that promise. Brother, even if you are standing on stubbornness, God gave that to you. A strong stubbornness that He knew would sustain you through your trial, so that you can stand unwavering and have hope. Stubbornly trusting in God is one of the best things you could do! |
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Post by tkk2 on Oct 9, 2017 18:58:39 GMT -5
Hey Eric, I listened to this amazing sermon today and was actually thinking of you during it. I know it's a little long, but please listen to this when you have the time. www.victory.church/media-archive/2017618-designer-of-hopeBrother, I know this is hard and we often think we are standing in vain and when God? When is your promise going to be fulfilled? But in those moments, remember Abraham. Paul says his body was as good as dead and yet, facing the circumstances of his current situation and realizing that Hope was lost, he chose to have faith in God and not waver. He knew that God was bigger then any circumstance, even his 100 year old body as good as dead. He knew that when God made a promise, He is trustworthy and will keep that promise. Brother, even if you are standing on stubbornness, God gave that to you. A strong stubbornness that He knew would sustain you through your trial, so that you can stand unwavering and have hope. Stubbornly trusting in God is one of the best things you could do! Eric, you are living the golden rule...do unto others...thats good! In my own situation, i had to get of my own way and let God be God. Once i realized that, and more importantly, implemented it....i could see the other side of the mountain. For instance, i used to leave cards (lots of them) for Dana, in my own attempt to communicate. And that was the problem....not the cards....but me doing it my way, not surrendering the whole situation to the Lord. Since i stopped, Dana's heart is softening little by little. I've been writing and rewriting my testimony for over a year now...something i added yesterday might help you....that our separation was necessary so that Dana could find his way back to the Lord and begin to heal. My prayers are with you, friend... We miss you on the forum! |
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Post by Adrienne on Oct 12, 2017 8:54:11 GMT -5
I've been worried about you, brother, and have missed hearing from you on the forum. Thanks for checking in. I know it's hard to get that silence and lack of understanding, but as the others have said, God is still working. I look at the clear signs that He has given us - look at what Sharon's going through right now - and I can't help but think that if He didn't want you to stand, it would be crystal clear to you. Don't let the enemy and your own fear get the best of you, brother. Keep leaning on God and seeking out His perfect will each day. I'm trying to do the same myself.
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Post by Adrienne on Oct 12, 2017 8:54:54 GMT -5
Also wanted to say - even when we don't hear from you much, we do continue to pray for you and yours always! You are not alone in this, brother.
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Post by Sharon on Oct 12, 2017 11:53:45 GMT -5
Adrienne is right! Think of how many times God has confirmed to you. The trucks that you have seen, songs you have heard at church and words people there have spoken to you. Go back in the forum too and read over the years some of the confirmations God has given. He is good and every plan he has for you is good brother.
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