Scary photo = NO to fear. YES to faith.

I glanced over while G was using his phone today and saw that he had a screen up on some app (looked like Facebook) and the screen showed a picture of a pretty girl. In the split second I saw it, it looked like he was on a girl's profile page. I didn't ask him about it but it immediately sent a bolt of fear through me. I try not to doubt or speculate about whether he is straying again, talking to other women, etc. For a long time I have not been in a place of "active" fear, and I really don't want to go back to that. 

I am insecure because we have had zero intimacy lately.. just both tired, sick, busy, etc. But again, I don't want to be looking at my marriage from a place of fear. Those aren't the eyes that God sees us through, and I shouldn't have that view either.

I hesitated over whether I should even post something about this. I finally decided to because it was bothering me, and also I kind of wanted to be accountable to myself and put it out into the universe that I am saying a firm NO to fear, to doubt, to speculation, to obsessing over the unknown. Instead, I am shouting a very loud YES to whatever God's plans for us are. A YES to faith, and to trusting in Him to take care of me.

I would really appreciate your help in prayer, my friends <3