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Post by Sharon on Apr 23, 2017 14:39:40 GMT -5
I think I told y'all I'm volunteering at the church now for Friday nights. It's been a food service thing, so I'm good at that. I love it. But whenever I get around the lead pastor, he is such a busy guy. I feel more like a burden then a help. I always walk away from interactions with him feeling drained and like I just made things more difficult then they should be. This guy is madly nice and a very hard worker. I can't figure out why I am always leaving feeling so uncomfortable. Like maybe I feel I am not doing enough, but I'm there to do my part.
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Post by leandro on Apr 23, 2017 17:43:40 GMT -5
Sharon I guess that's how we all feel when we first start serving at our churches. I started serving 3 weeks ago in my church and I feel the same way. So Don't worry about it, im pretty sure you are doing your best.
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Post by pstokes522 on Apr 24, 2017 9:45:58 GMT -5
Sharon - I sometimes feel like my contributions are inadequate also. God sees the heart!
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Post by Sharon on Apr 25, 2017 12:24:35 GMT -5
You guys are so sweet! Thanks for the encouragement. I have been feeling emotionally tired (not exhausted, but just tired. I think part of it has to do with spending time around people who don't know my story and all of that, so feeling like I have to put on a good face and be the perfect Christian. It's annoying. I do think it might be to do with putting too much into trying to show a good appearance. I just got off the phone with my aunt and I had that same deflated feeling after the conversation. I'm just thinking it has to do more with putting on a face. I don't like being a fake person. I also am not going to go around airing my dirty laundry all over. So maybe sometimes it's easier to just avoid people. I don't know. I think this is where I am getting to emotionally. And I hope that makes sense?! Lol
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Post by william on Apr 26, 2017 17:09:49 GMT -5
Sister,
As others have said, God knows your heart. Do the best you can -as it's all you can do.
I have found that in my church and all over the place (just have to watch & listen) there are memebers that appear to be what I see as worldly hypochristians that are all about the flash & status, but yet don't practice all of Gods words just those that work or gives them something to gain. They are not interested sitting with and being a friend to those who are broken. Spiritually you, we and a lot of people are more receptive to hearing & feeling God.
Maybe the Pastor has a lot on his plate and the feeling you have is because God lays it on you repeatedly. I will pray that God speaks, directs and provides the words to say to the Pastor, because my feeling is it's not a coincidence but an opportunity for growth.
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Post by Sharon on Apr 30, 2017 11:51:17 GMT -5
Thank you William! I think you are spot on with that! I keep feeling like this poor man needs to sit down and rest and wish I could help, but actually I can! I have a house cleaning company and I am sure a gift certificate for house cleaning would give him and his wife a moment of peace. I am going to send him an email in a few weeks here.
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Post by Adrienne on May 15, 2017 10:37:06 GMT -5
Hey Sharon, I haven't been around for a few weeks. How are things going with your service work and the lead pastor now? Are you feeling better?
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Post by Sharon on May 29, 2017 20:11:17 GMT -5
Hey Adrienne! Yes, things are better. I was feeling frustrated because I didn't want to feel like a burden to this pastor, but actually I think I was feeling heavy because of a project I had taken on that I didn't feel worth of. Remember that God qualifies the called, he doesn't call the qualified. I struggle so much with self worth issues and didn't think I was doing a good job, but it came out well in the end and it was mostly because of the work I did, so I am happy. God has been working on me building up my confidence. A lot of that was from all the issues with our marriage, I started to believe the enemies lies that I was worthless. But God has been working on me a lot! Actually, in the last 8 months I've lost 63lbs and I still have about 18 to go, but that alone has built up a lot of confidence. Our sex lives are back on track (y'all know that is such a struggle) and I have more energy. God has been using so many things to rebuild me and this pastor was one of them.
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Post by tkk2 on May 29, 2017 20:17:44 GMT -5
Sharon...i luv hearing so much steadfastness in you....its very admirable!
You go girl!
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Post by Adrienne on Jun 2, 2017 13:26:59 GMT -5
I love hearing this Sharon! God works in amazing and mysterious ways, but isn't He so awesome!!!  I love Him so much. I am constantly amazed at how He works all for our good <3 And kudos to you for all your effort to follow His plan for your life! |
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I love Him so much. I am constantly amazed at how He works all for our good <3 And kudos to you for all your effort to follow His plan for your life!