Saw David

David came to town yesterday. While we were working in storage he kept making remarks to me that I took to be flirting. After we had his truck loaded, I was expecting him to rush off, but he just kept hanging around. I just stayed and kept talking to him. He then invited me to go have a drink before he left, so I accepted. We went to a local restaurant that has a bar area and after just a couple sips of his drink he just started opening up about his life. He is miserable! From all outside appearances he and the OW are happy, and living life large and in charge. But in reality, he is feeling extreme guilt and shame for what he did to us, how he has hurt me & our children and how he completely wrecked our life. He's not happy with her, but feels responsible for her for some reason. He told me she was constantly after him to divorce me for the three + years they were together before I found out about her. And now that we're divorced, she's constantly nagging him to marry her. He was very open that he has no plans to marry her and his new house is in only his name and he pays all the bills, so she has no claim to anything. He was literally crying, openly in this restaurant in front of everyone, telling me how he knows he will never have the relationship he wants with his kids because they will never accept her in his life because they feel that would hurt me, and they don't want to cause me anymore pain. And he said he completely understands where they are coming from, because I've been there for them their entire lives and he's caused them a lot of pain. Guys, my heart broke so much for him. What he was saying to me could have been cut and pasted out of all the prodigal testimonies I have read. He told me he thinks about me all the time, he dreams about me at night. The OW is extremely jealous of me, so she's always questioning him about any contact we have. He told me he just wants some peace in his life. He doesn't understand why I haven't moved on with someone else. I told him I still love him and about my stand and that God spoke to me that he was going to restore our marriage. And talk about being double minded - he told me he didn't want to give me false hope - because he can't come back to me after everything he has done - then he turned right around and questioned how we would be able to logistically reunite with my place in one town and his new house in another town. He told me how very much he cared for me, while being very careful to not say he loved me, (that whole false hope thing). We spent the night together and I have not one iota of shame, but this morning he felt guilty for cheating on her with me. I was completely blown away by the things he was saying, God truly is working on the other side of that mountain. I will continue to pray for all of you & ask the same for me and David. I've never seen him this way before.