Post by Sharon on Mar 10, 2017 14:27:58 GMT -5
I have had so many updates recently. I think I get whiny when Chris leaves, but then again this is the enemy attacking me because he knows I'm weak.
I was checking our card statement and saw Chris went to some Asian lingerie coffee bar. Y'all know I'm weak sometimes. I'm struggling in my heart because I need to trust God, but then I see him letting temptation tease him. It doesn't mean he cheated. It doesn't mean he is sinning. But when an alcoholic goes to a bar, it's hard to believe they just got a soda. I wish he wouldn't allow himself to be talked into stepping foot into a place of such heavy temptation for him. I mean I don't go to hookah bars, because my vice is smoking. The enemy is trying. He's testing Chris and he's lying to me. God promised me that I could trust Chris again. Even if I don't, I need to trust in God. I am just so weak and the enemy has been relentlessly attacking for 2 weeks since Chris left. Car accident and repairs, Chris is gone, my brother having so much chaos, me sick, kids sick. Those are just the immediate issues because the back burner problems involve a tumor on my chest I am having a doctor look at next Tuesday, Codys constant prison issues, and my disabled friend Debbie moving into a new apartment. I can't do it all. I can only do as much as I can. But I need Gods strength. Honestly, I can't fix Chris and I don't want to take this on. God is in control and I just want to let that go to Him. On a lighter note, praise and thank you Lord for all your goodness in that it is Friday and I will finally after 3 weeks of not going, be able to go to Friday night service!
I was checking our card statement and saw Chris went to some Asian lingerie coffee bar. Y'all know I'm weak sometimes. I'm struggling in my heart because I need to trust God, but then I see him letting temptation tease him. It doesn't mean he cheated. It doesn't mean he is sinning. But when an alcoholic goes to a bar, it's hard to believe they just got a soda. I wish he wouldn't allow himself to be talked into stepping foot into a place of such heavy temptation for him. I mean I don't go to hookah bars, because my vice is smoking. The enemy is trying. He's testing Chris and he's lying to me. God promised me that I could trust Chris again. Even if I don't, I need to trust in God. I am just so weak and the enemy has been relentlessly attacking for 2 weeks since Chris left. Car accident and repairs, Chris is gone, my brother having so much chaos, me sick, kids sick. Those are just the immediate issues because the back burner problems involve a tumor on my chest I am having a doctor look at next Tuesday, Codys constant prison issues, and my disabled friend Debbie moving into a new apartment. I can't do it all. I can only do as much as I can. But I need Gods strength. Honestly, I can't fix Chris and I don't want to take this on. God is in control and I just want to let that go to Him. On a lighter note, praise and thank you Lord for all your goodness in that it is Friday and I will finally after 3 weeks of not going, be able to go to Friday night service!
