Post by tkk2 on Feb 4, 2017 6:30:02 GMT -5
Wanted to say hi to everyone. I just finished 40 days straight of work. I'm tired. This is the 3rd tax season on my own...since we separated. Even with the volume, my thoughts often turn to my husband. On one hand, I miss him terribly....then, I find myself fighting the negative thoughts of resentment of having to do this on my own.
The first week was so nice....Dana prepared meals 2 different times and left them for me. ..so sweet. We talk or text almost every day now, which is amazing compared to last January and the silence.
Dana had a colonoscopy originally scheduled for Dec but didn't happen until last week. I was insistent on taking him in Dec, but i don't think he wanted me to. I wonder if he pushed it into Jan, because then I would be to busy and that would get him off the hook of telling me no. Anyway, I moved mountains with my schedule and surprised him and our daughter at the hospital by being there when he checked in. I need him to know he is so much more important than my busiest month in tax season. His reaction was negative...he was irritated I was missing work.
But he's still so distant, like he's never coming home. I'm not sure I can express it. I suggested we go do something tomorrow, bowling, hiking...his initial response was yes. Then i followed up saying it would be fun to make new memories, that I miss us. Then his response was nothing....back to silence. Thats what hurts. I can sense that the enemy continues to tell him lies that we should never have been together. It's a coldness I perceive every now and then.
On a different note, I read the posts on here often, you are all in my prayers.
The first week was so nice....Dana prepared meals 2 different times and left them for me. ..so sweet. We talk or text almost every day now, which is amazing compared to last January and the silence.
Dana had a colonoscopy originally scheduled for Dec but didn't happen until last week. I was insistent on taking him in Dec, but i don't think he wanted me to. I wonder if he pushed it into Jan, because then I would be to busy and that would get him off the hook of telling me no. Anyway, I moved mountains with my schedule and surprised him and our daughter at the hospital by being there when he checked in. I need him to know he is so much more important than my busiest month in tax season. His reaction was negative...he was irritated I was missing work.
But he's still so distant, like he's never coming home. I'm not sure I can express it. I suggested we go do something tomorrow, bowling, hiking...his initial response was yes. Then i followed up saying it would be fun to make new memories, that I miss us. Then his response was nothing....back to silence. Thats what hurts. I can sense that the enemy continues to tell him lies that we should never have been together. It's a coldness I perceive every now and then.
On a different note, I read the posts on here often, you are all in my prayers.
