Post by Sharon on Mar 8, 2016 11:34:51 GMT -5
I am so weak. Please keep me in prayers today. I have been checking my phone like every 5 minutes anticipating someone to say something to me that will just fix everything. I got up early to spend time in my prayer room and that helped, but I don't think I should be at work. I am not focused at all.
I had texted Chris this morning that I had a business thing I needed to talk to him about. A few hours later I was talking to Chris's mom when he texted back to find out what it was. When I didn't respond he said he has a business thing to discuss too. I asked if I could call and he said yea but he pushed me to voicemail so I called again. I asked him to go first, but he said no I should speak so I told him what I needed to and he said ok. I asked what he needed to talk about and he said he would rather text and I objected and said we could talk but he said no he will text me. We said I love you's and hung up but it was so obvious he is sad and angry right now. He never texted me so I texted and said I am here for him when he wants to talk. I tried to call his mom back but she was on the other line (I am praying she is on with him). I wonder if he just said he had to talk business to get me to answer him because I wasn't responding to his texts. I know he's miserable right now and it's truly hurting me. I have forgiven him and I'm not angry and bitter so it's hard to be stubborn and hold my ground, but I know this is what is best for him - me standing out of Gods way. It's just really shaking me...
I had texted Chris this morning that I had a business thing I needed to talk to him about. A few hours later I was talking to Chris's mom when he texted back to find out what it was. When I didn't respond he said he has a business thing to discuss too. I asked if I could call and he said yea but he pushed me to voicemail so I called again. I asked him to go first, but he said no I should speak so I told him what I needed to and he said ok. I asked what he needed to talk about and he said he would rather text and I objected and said we could talk but he said no he will text me. We said I love you's and hung up but it was so obvious he is sad and angry right now. He never texted me so I texted and said I am here for him when he wants to talk. I tried to call his mom back but she was on the other line (I am praying she is on with him). I wonder if he just said he had to talk business to get me to answer him because I wasn't responding to his texts. I know he's miserable right now and it's truly hurting me. I have forgiven him and I'm not angry and bitter so it's hard to be stubborn and hold my ground, but I know this is what is best for him - me standing out of Gods way. It's just really shaking me...
