Prayers

Praying for you Mary!!! What's going on? Just feeling frustrated at the lack of commitment still or did something else happen?

Remember to try and take your eyes off this situation with Tony and put them on God and on your kids. How can you reconnect with God and focus back in on your relationship with Him? Can you sing some worship songs? Can you get in the word or into prayer? Can you write out some verses that speak to your heart?

Praying for you for peace and strength!!

Father I come to you, tonight asking for peace for my sister. I ask that you reach out your hand, lay it on her shoulder and allow your peace and comfort to flood through her. Reassure her, that you are always right there. That no matter what may be going on in this world, no matter what may be troubling her mind, that you are always there with her. Lord, grant her tranquility. Give her a good night's sleep, safe and secure in your arms. The world's troubles will be there in the morning, let her deal with tomorrow's burden tomorrow. Father God, I ask these things in your son's holy name, knowing they are already done, in your will, lay your hand. Amen.

My emotions are getting the best of me still and keeping my focus right is still a strain.. I gotta be missing somthing..maybe I'm not spending enough time in the word.. I always read a verse or devo but I haven't had a good chunk of time just reading a few pages from a random place in the Word... Maybe there's somthing I need to repent for that's hindering my prayers.. I can't think of anything... Maybe I'm not forgiving Tony, or someone deep down, so my prayers are being hindered? I don't know but I just pray the Lord acts swiftly

Do what you can to find peace. Read scripture, play worship music, or pray. I'll be praying for you. You could be on track but the enemy wants you to stop praying for your husband and your marriage. He wants you to give up. But you have the Lord. Even though it's hard right now God is with you and will pull you through. I'll keep praying for you.

Mary I feel so much for your situation - Chris often does things that make me just hate him but love is a choice you have to make. I was reading Romans 12 again tonight. I am trying to sit down and look at every sentence and make sure I understand it very clearly. Verse 9 says Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. 10 Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves. - consider this for you Mary not for Tony. Are you honoring him above yourself? Are you loving him sincerely even when he is not lovable? - 11 Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor. - so we are encouraged to press on heavily into our worship and prayer and our word. Don't fall into this trap of going through the motions (we all fall into this, but we have to press forward) - 12 Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. - my favorite verse...when there is hope be joyful, when there is affliction be patient and no matter what always be faithful in prayer - 13 Share with the Lords people who are in need. Practice hospitality. - that is talking about Tony. He is the Lords and he is definitely in need. Why does God use this word hospitality? Defined as friendly and generous reception of guests, visitors, or strangers. Because Tony is the Lords, but he has not accepted his purpose that God created him for. Right now he is a stranger in Gods house and you need to receive him with generosity and kindness. - 14 Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. - every time God repeats himself we have to pay extra attention. Bless he says. Bless because it is hard to do and completely backwards from the worldly reaction. - 15 Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn. - and he may seem to be happy going out and getting high, but Tony is mourning. He has a hole that he is not allowing God to fill in him for whatever his reasons are and his actions are that if a self destructive person. He is in deep mourning and you mourn for his sake. You want to see his restoration with God. - 16 Live in harmony with one another. Don't be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position. Do not be conceited. - Just like Jesus associated with drinks, tax collectors, prostitutes, we are called to associate and in fact be in harmony with our wayward spouses. They don't follow God and his example and we can not act conceited like we are better then them. The only way to associate is putting pride aside in exchange for love. - 17 Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everyone. 18 If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. 19 Do not take revenge my dear friends but leave room for Gods wrath, for it is written: "it is mine to avenge; I will repay" says the Lord. 20 On the contrary: "If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirty, give him something to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head. 21 Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good. - he says it again and again in these last verses. Don't let evil take over you. It's not your place to be evil or take revenge on Tony even though he is acting wrong. Trust that any mean thing you could say or do, God can and will do worse. He will take up for you and take revenge and hang him by his own rope, because when Tony sees you acting with love it will heap burning coals on his head and he probably will react with anger. He is blinded and can't see how his actions are hurting him. Don't let his actions hurt you though.
Matt Mcmillen has this amazing quote - one of the greatest ways you can be a witness to others is to be genuinely happy no matter what. Don't let Tony steal your joy, but if you can not have joy, at least have patience. I am praying for peace for you tonight Mary.

Lol! Thank you for that book! I'm copying & saving it to my phone so I can read it throughout the day! Thank you for breaking thoes verses down like that.. I need to be studying the word more & not just reading devotionals.