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Post by Sharon on Oct 15, 2016 17:13:46 GMT -5
My sister and her husband, brother and his girlfriend, and 2 other couples are all going to this corn maze tonight. I am coming and bringing my kids but I am terrified that Chris is not going to come. I don't want to show up to all of these couples without my husband. Please pray for peace for me and pray that Chris decides to come. I am going though regardless. I need to be strong and trust in God and that might mean Chris misses out on fun, but I really hope not. I really hope he comes.
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Hope
Oct 15, 2016 19:13:54 GMT -5
Post by Sharon on Oct 15, 2016 19:13:54 GMT -5
He's not coming. I am tired of caring so much. I wish I could just stop.
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Post by Mary H on Oct 15, 2016 19:44:26 GMT -5
Praying
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Post by Mary H on Oct 15, 2016 19:47:09 GMT -5
They let us down over & over & it hurts .. I know what it's like getting to the point of just wanting to quit
But God will strengthen you Sharon & bring you through this! He will defeat the enemy that's waging war within you right now & in HIS perfect timing, He will transform Chris
Just hold on sister, He will carry you & get You through. He is so so very faithful & is always with you
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Post by Mary H on Oct 15, 2016 19:47:48 GMT -5
Do it for the kingdom sister!
Do it for Jesus, who gave it all away for you
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Post by Mary H on Oct 15, 2016 19:49:31 GMT -5
Forgive him
Slap Satan in the face & forgive Chris AGAIN in the midst of you strong emotions
Just give it all to Jesus once again
The process seems exousting but He will bring you out the other side stronger & bolder in faith
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Post by Mary H on Oct 15, 2016 19:51:09 GMT -5
Spend some time in worship tonight when the kids go to sleep
Take communion & read the parts of the gospel about Jesus crusified
That's what i plan to do tonight
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Post by Sharon on Oct 15, 2016 20:16:44 GMT -5
Mary thank you for these words. Right now I can't see anything but red. My heart was hard for years. God came in and rescued me and softened my heart to love Chris again. Right now my walls are going back up for Chris. I don't want to love him. I don't want to let him in. I'm so tired of being loving and being shot down. I'm tired for me and I'm tired for my kids. I can't be loving right now. I won't be mean but I can't be nice. I am so angry and sad.
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Post by Sharon on Oct 15, 2016 20:19:34 GMT -5
And I'm angry at God. Why does he keep letting me come back to this place?
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Post by Mary H on Oct 15, 2016 20:46:23 GMT -5
Ive been asking Him the same thing this week.
I think it's a reminder of how broken we are.. a reminder of how we are no better than anyone because we too get into these dark places..
we need Him despritly.
Not just when we feel like it
Each thought has to be taken captive to Christ or we will always get into some type of rut.
Thankfully He doesn't expect us to be perfect over night & is so patient with us.
Try to have this perspective- let him. Let him do things that disappoint you. Let Satan try to hurt you through your husband & just smile at the enemy.. Your relationship with Jesus is solid, right?
Your taking in His grace deeply every day so your peace is steady, right?
Then let him, forgive him, & live your life with Christ as your main husband. If not, then ask Himto help you get back to that place ofbold faith. That's what I'm doing lately.
Sharon if I lived closer then u & the kids could come over & we could hang out & pray
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Post by Eric W. on Oct 15, 2016 22:02:37 GMT -5
I know a lot of us have turned away from social media, but me being a tech person I haven't. One of the people I follow is a minister husband and wife out of Atlanta, GA. The wife has a big social following and posts things quite often that speak to me. This is something she posted that spoke to me.
Kimberly Jones-Pothier
For example..... that divorce that you thought would make you lose your mind. Or that addiction that kept you bound for so long. Or that sickness that you thought would kill you, but through all you've been through the crushing of your adversity produced oil... you made it through and now God is using the anointing on your life to win the world. Hurt people hurt people but healed people heal people. The enemy should have taken you out when he could have because now you're about to be his worst nightmare with your testimony!!! #wonthedoit #realtalkkim #god
Like Mary said, it's hard. That's the reason we can't do this on our own. We have to be willing to go to God, for wisdom, for direction, for strength, for healing. It is only through him, that anyone really has the power to face tomorrow. Sister, you are hurt for you, you are hurt for your kids, and I understand being tired. Jesus never told us it would be easy, just that it would be worth it. I am praying for and with you sister.
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Post by tschnelli on Oct 16, 2016 10:39:26 GMT -5
Man Sharon, I hurt for you right now. It's so hard to keep opening up, holding your arms open to your love, only to get shot down and hurt again. Our spouses see us with open arms. They may hurt us intentionally, or they might not. Either way, they, and those around us, see what is happening. The reflection of Christ in you is powerful. It's confusing. It's opposite of the world. You stand out. You're standing strong. You're bringing glory to God. Let His glory and love for you comfort you. You make your Father proud. Praying for you. Keep fighting.
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Post by Sharon on Oct 16, 2016 15:34:50 GMT -5
Thank you all so much. Chris left this morning without kissing me or saying bye. He's done that the last 2 days now. I have been angry at him the whole day and even started "praying" to him again - rehearsing all the things I want to say to him. Eric what you said is right though. Hurt people hurt people, healed people heal people. Chris is not home from work yet, and I'm still not happy with him, but the last thing he would expect is to come home to a wife who hugs and kisses him and forgives him when he really doesn't deserve it. This is an opportunity to show Gods love. As angry as I am with him, I need to put it aside and be a loving and forgiving wife so that I can shine Gods love. And I really REALLY don't want to right now. I'm still really angry and hurt. Please just pray that God gives me the strength to do this.
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Hope
Oct 16, 2016 21:43:26 GMT -5
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Post by marissaa91 on Oct 16, 2016 21:43:26 GMT -5
Praying for you Sharon. The others are right, it's ok to hurt because these situations are hurtful. But don't allow your hurt to linger. Don't allow it to turn into bitterness. God is not bitter. He is just and forgiving. And He commands us to be even in the hardest of situations. You can forgive, because God would never tell us we could do something without giving us everything we need to do it. Which is his strength and word. You can do all things through Christ who gives you strength. Also, forgiveness sets YOU free from anger and a hard heart. Don't allow the enwmy to steal your joy. It takes so much more energy to be angry than it does to be happy. Don't do it for Chris, do it for God and for yourself. By being happy, kind, and a Godly woman your actions can win over Chris. It says so in the bible. So lean on God for Strength and Peace and keep moving forward. I'll continue to pray.
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Hope
Oct 16, 2016 22:06:39 GMT -5
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Post by Adrienne on Oct 16, 2016 22:06:39 GMT -5
Hi Sharon, I have been out of town a few days so I'm just now getting caught up on the forum. I really sympathize with you as my husband has also said "no" so many times when I really, really wish he would have said yes and wanted to be there.
Here are some verses I have to come to time and time again:
"See to it that no one fails to obtain the grace of God; that no “root of bitterness” springs up and causes trouble, and by it many become defiled" (Hebrews 12:15)
"Jesus said to him, “I do not say to you seven times, but seventy-seven times." (Matthew 18:22)
Our friends have already said it all... it seems impossible, but we have to choose to forgive. It's okay and natural to hurt but we have to take it to the cross. Love beyond what's reasonable because if God's love for us were "reasonable" we would have nothing because we are so undeserving of it! Remember, eyes on God sister.
I'm really tired right now from such a long weekend so I'm sorry that my "encouragement well" is a bit dry right now but I didn't want to not reply after seeing this post. Just know I'm praying with and for you sister.
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