Post by pstokes522 on Oct 7, 2016 9:24:45 GMT -5
I told you all previously that I am going to be a grandma again. My son was to become a father in February 2017. Baby Austin came early, Monday evening at 21 weeks, and he didn't make it. My son is devastated and it is so heartbreaking. I had left on a cruise with my youngest daughter and about 10 of my female friends on Sunday. When I got the urgent message from the ship, I knew something terrible had happened, but it didn't even occur to me that it was the baby. When I talked to him and he told me Austin didn't make it, I just broke down. I had to get home to him. The ship pulled into Cozumel the next morning, so I went to guest services & told them I needed off to fly home. Everything just happened so fast then, with the ship and Mexican authorities telling me everything I needed to do, and it all had to be done so quickly, I felt like I was walking around in a daze. I had to leave my daughter on the cruise, because she didn't get a passport & they didn't know if she would get back into the country with only a birth certificate. It was hard to leave her, but I knew my friends would take good care of her. Of course, I couldn't get a flight out of Cozumel, so after the Mexican official got me cleared through immigration, he took me to a ferry and told me to take the ferry to Playa de Carmen and then take the bus to the Cancun airport. It was like something out of a movie, this middle aged white woman trying to traverse a foreign country without speaking the language, but I made it back to my baby, (he's still my baby at 26) about 10 o'clock Tuesday night. About 24 hours after he first called me.
When he picked me up from the airport he told me all the details, Ashley said something didn't feel right so he was driving her to the hospital, 90 miles an hour on the highway, her two year old daughter in the back seat, knowing something was wrong and not saying a word, and the baby was born in the car right before he took the exit for the hospital. It's San Antonio so of course there's road construction, and the emergency exit was covered up, so he had to circle the hospital a couple of times trying to find the emergency entrance, all the time Ashley holding that little kicking baby. In all actuality it was probably about 10 minutes, but it seemed like forever when it was happening.
The baby didn't live long. But he was a little fighter and fought till the end. He was so perfectly formed and already looking like my son. I thought I was heartbroken over David divorcing me, but this takes heartbreak to a whole new level. I've never felt so crushed. Watching my son hold that little tiny baby yesterday, kissing him and telling him he loves him all the while crying his eyes out, there's no words to describe the pain he and Ashley are going through, & the pain of his mother watching it all. I had such plans for that little baby.
We find our comfort in knowing that he's with Jesus and will never know anything but love. He knew love in the womb and he'll no nothing but love in heaven. He'll never experience the pain of this cruel world.
My husband had left Monday morning to go back to work overseas. My son was able to get a hold of him Tuesday afternoon, and my husband continued on to his job. He could have called and the other guy would have stayed an extra week, but once again he CHOSE to put work above all else. My son was so hurt by his father. He expressed this to me, and ended by saying "I don't know why I'm surprised, he always put work before us." Right now, I don't even want any communication from David. I'm done wishing for God to restore our marriage. I will pray for his salvation, but I will put no more emphasis on his salvation than I do any one else's. I don't want him back. I will not 'move on' with anyone else, but I will not be praying for marriage restoration either. I'm just going to live my life for Christ, looking forward to eternity and the time I will get to hold Austin once again.
I will probably not be on here much anymore. I will continue to pray for all of you, and for the restoration of your marriages. I will check in every now and then, and offer any encouragement I can. I love you all and you will continue to be in my prayers.
When he picked me up from the airport he told me all the details, Ashley said something didn't feel right so he was driving her to the hospital, 90 miles an hour on the highway, her two year old daughter in the back seat, knowing something was wrong and not saying a word, and the baby was born in the car right before he took the exit for the hospital. It's San Antonio so of course there's road construction, and the emergency exit was covered up, so he had to circle the hospital a couple of times trying to find the emergency entrance, all the time Ashley holding that little kicking baby. In all actuality it was probably about 10 minutes, but it seemed like forever when it was happening.
The baby didn't live long. But he was a little fighter and fought till the end. He was so perfectly formed and already looking like my son. I thought I was heartbroken over David divorcing me, but this takes heartbreak to a whole new level. I've never felt so crushed. Watching my son hold that little tiny baby yesterday, kissing him and telling him he loves him all the while crying his eyes out, there's no words to describe the pain he and Ashley are going through, & the pain of his mother watching it all. I had such plans for that little baby.
We find our comfort in knowing that he's with Jesus and will never know anything but love. He knew love in the womb and he'll no nothing but love in heaven. He'll never experience the pain of this cruel world.
My husband had left Monday morning to go back to work overseas. My son was able to get a hold of him Tuesday afternoon, and my husband continued on to his job. He could have called and the other guy would have stayed an extra week, but once again he CHOSE to put work above all else. My son was so hurt by his father. He expressed this to me, and ended by saying "I don't know why I'm surprised, he always put work before us." Right now, I don't even want any communication from David. I'm done wishing for God to restore our marriage. I will pray for his salvation, but I will put no more emphasis on his salvation than I do any one else's. I don't want him back. I will not 'move on' with anyone else, but I will not be praying for marriage restoration either. I'm just going to live my life for Christ, looking forward to eternity and the time I will get to hold Austin once again.
I will probably not be on here much anymore. I will continue to pray for all of you, and for the restoration of your marriages. I will check in every now and then, and offer any encouragement I can. I love you all and you will continue to be in my prayers.
