Post by Adrienne on Sept 5, 2016 20:46:33 GMT -5
Hello everyone!
I've been encouraged by Sharon's call for us to get back in the game, so here's my little update! (Thanks, Sharon!)
Overall, things are pretty good, but it's a sort of superficial good. G and I have been fighting less for the most part and have been relatively happy together. The big issues have continued: he's still not interested in going back to church, he still goes out clubbing/drinking, and he still is on his phone a ton. But I can also see the effort he makes daily to talk to me more / pay more attention to me and to speak to me kindly, dedicate time to me, etc. I have definitely seen God work in him over the past two years since I started "officially" standing.
The thing is that lately I haven't been seeking out God anymore. I mean, of course I still believe in Him and I still go to church three times a week. But I barely pray or read the word on my own at home anymore. I'm working on preparing for my PhD exams (in November) and now I'm also back in school teaching, so I stay so busy that it's easy to not make time for God like I should. I know that it's affected me a lot... the past few weeks in particular I've been so emotional and insecure and have picked a few fights with my G. I know it wears on him and it does on me too; I'm so sick of any type of fighting!
Almost every time I go to church, it's because I feel obligated, not because I am really craving that time... Sometimes I still enjoy the service but sometimes I just feel so tired that I can't connect; I'm counting the minutes until it's over and I can go home. At least once a week I say to myself: tomorrow I'm going to change, I'm going to reach out again and get back into this relationship with God, but I don't follow through. Sharon was right in her post holding us accountable: I know I've been drifting!
So here are my goals, and I hope you guys will pray with me and help me stay accountable:
- Spend some time in the word every day, even if it's just one devotional
- Take time to pray every day (a few intentional minutes morning and night as a minimum, to get started)
- Enjoy some praise time every day
- Decide to look forward to church every day there's a service
- While at church, search for the positive and instructive ways God speaks through everyone, rather than criticizing or drifting off mentally
- Be more active in prayer for marriages and community involvement on this forum
Thanks my friends for always being there and I am ready to be there for you guys again too! I'll be praying!
I've been encouraged by Sharon's call for us to get back in the game, so here's my little update! (Thanks, Sharon!)
Overall, things are pretty good, but it's a sort of superficial good. G and I have been fighting less for the most part and have been relatively happy together. The big issues have continued: he's still not interested in going back to church, he still goes out clubbing/drinking, and he still is on his phone a ton. But I can also see the effort he makes daily to talk to me more / pay more attention to me and to speak to me kindly, dedicate time to me, etc. I have definitely seen God work in him over the past two years since I started "officially" standing.
The thing is that lately I haven't been seeking out God anymore. I mean, of course I still believe in Him and I still go to church three times a week. But I barely pray or read the word on my own at home anymore. I'm working on preparing for my PhD exams (in November) and now I'm also back in school teaching, so I stay so busy that it's easy to not make time for God like I should. I know that it's affected me a lot... the past few weeks in particular I've been so emotional and insecure and have picked a few fights with my G. I know it wears on him and it does on me too; I'm so sick of any type of fighting!
Almost every time I go to church, it's because I feel obligated, not because I am really craving that time... Sometimes I still enjoy the service but sometimes I just feel so tired that I can't connect; I'm counting the minutes until it's over and I can go home. At least once a week I say to myself: tomorrow I'm going to change, I'm going to reach out again and get back into this relationship with God, but I don't follow through. Sharon was right in her post holding us accountable: I know I've been drifting!
So here are my goals, and I hope you guys will pray with me and help me stay accountable:
- Spend some time in the word every day, even if it's just one devotional
- Take time to pray every day (a few intentional minutes morning and night as a minimum, to get started)
- Enjoy some praise time every day
- Decide to look forward to church every day there's a service
- While at church, search for the positive and instructive ways God speaks through everyone, rather than criticizing or drifting off mentally
- Be more active in prayer for marriages and community involvement on this forum
Thanks my friends for always being there and I am ready to be there for you guys again too! I'll be praying!
