Post by kridycat on Aug 18, 2016 10:26:08 GMT -5
I have not been on in awhile as I have been working a lot and when I'm not doing that I'm resting and maybe at times moping. I got news yesterday that the divorce papers are now ready to sign. My feelings are mixed, but I know I have to do it. I thought we would be able to reconcile, but it is not possible. I felt like I was breaking down a wall, but I was just building up hope to be setup for a bad crash and burn. We had gone to the movies together in which I asked him if he wanted to go and I considered it a date, but he apparently did not. So when I later brought it up it turned into a argument and I went and took the remaining clothes he left in the dresser that was his in our room and threw them across the hallway in front of the guest bedroom where he keeps his clothes. He didn't realize I did this until the next morning and he would not let me leave the house until I picked up the clothes and put them in a box. He also threatened me to call his lawyer about it and/or let the dog out of the house without a collar. This is when I realized there is nothing I can do and why would I want to continue to attempt to be in a relationship with a person who is going to threaten me. I started actually going out and looking at houses on August 6th. There is a house I really like and this past Saturday I had my mom, youngest sister and my 5 year old niece saw it and really liked it. I have everything I need together to put in an offer, but I have to wait for my house to sell first. We did just have a very interested party see our house for the second time yesterday which is looking promising. The house I want to buy the last day to put in offers if you want to actually live in the house is 8.22 and starting 8.23 they are accepting all offers, including those who want to purchase the property to use as a rental. I just want to finish getting my ducks in a row and get my new life started since my marriage is no repairable due to my husband's stubbornness. I am constantly praying and I know I have to trust God, but it is very nerve racking. I also started seeing a psychologist as my anxiety was starting to get out of hand in the mid-end of July.
