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Post by Adrienne on Jul 20, 2016 22:38:10 GMT -5
Hello friends. I've been resisting really contributing to my relationship with God for a while now, other than church and fleeting prayers. Part of this has included detachment from His amazing word, sadly!!
Tonight I finally dug back in after about three weeks of nothing, and I loved this word:
But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. 8 We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; 9 persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. 10 We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. (2 Corinthians 4:7-10).
I'm clinging to this truth tonight. I feel tired and sad. My husband's currently skyping with a female friend who recently returned from the US to her home country. It's a friendship that I've always struggled with because it began right around when I found out about his affair. Tonight my victory is simply that I've chosen to turn on praise music so I'm not tempted to try and hear every word he says in the next room. It's not my business... God has got this and I really just need to remember that and let go.
Praying for you guys- even though I have been praying less you are all always in my thoughts and prayers!
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Post by leandro on Jul 21, 2016 13:18:51 GMT -5
Thanks for sharing that Adrienne, powerfully verse. On the other hand I think at least your husband was not hiding it from you that he was talking to her friend. I always have all of you in my prayers as well even though I don't pray as much as I did months back.
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Post by Adrienne on Jul 21, 2016 14:08:26 GMT -5
You're right, Leandro - I thought of it that way too. He didn't hide it, was very open about it, and was doing it in the next room so I could hear if I wanted to. I find that a lot of my stand struggles are internal lately. My husband is still not in church and still partying, but he's been making a genuine effort to be a good husband. So my main difficulties are in my own mindset - facing the lasting scars of the affair and my insecurities and fears!
I encourage you to stay in prayer though my friend. I know firsthand it can be easy to detach and I am really fighting now to get back into that... but last night as I was finally getting into some heartfelt prayer, I started crying and it just felt so good to know that I was opening up at last to someone who always wants to listen. Our God loves us so much and He wants us to pray, and maybe we push away from that but the reality is our soul craves it and needs it to thrive! I continue praying for you, brother.
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Post by Sharon on Aug 3, 2016 0:03:34 GMT -5
Adrienne I admire your resolve greatly. You know I have always struggled with snooping and recently I've been taking your advice to just ignore and avoid it and it has made a huge difference in my joy. I'm able to focus better on God and less on Chris. I do hate that I don't know everything that's going on, but God knows. And He is the only one who can do anything about it any ways, so I don't need to know. It's a huge burden that lifts off of me when I'm actually able to keep myself from snooping
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Post by Adrienne on Aug 3, 2016 8:59:57 GMT -5
Praise the Lord for that Sharon!! This is something that God has definitely helped me with and it has been huge for me.
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