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Post by leandro on Jul 18, 2016 17:11:43 GMT -5
I don't know how to start, its been a while since the last time I posted something. I just want to let everyone know that all of you have been of great help for me in this journey, and I thank God for the life of every single one of you, I really do. As I wrote here a couple months ago I mentioned there were a few girls from church that would always look at me and smile, but there was one who actually started talking to me and we became friends. I think you all know where I'm going with this, and I feel really bad because most of you are going through a worst situation that I am, and I could not kept on fighting. I've been in a relationship with this woman almost two weeks now, she also knows it's not right because I'm married but we keep falling, my wife on the other hand is even colder than before and rarely says anything to me while she keep posting pictures partying or in the beach with her friends, I know this isn't an excuse for what I've been doing but I let my guard down in prayer and this is where I am now. I have no clue what is going to happen now with my marriage, with my life, with the children that God showed me through prayers and dreams. I'm sorry guys I not only failed God most importantly but also all of you who have prayed and given me a lot of your time. I don't know what to do. I ask God for help.
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Post by Eric W. on Jul 18, 2016 17:38:39 GMT -5
Leandro,
You said, yourself this isn't right. You and this OW both know this. Knowing a sin is a sin, and not falling for it are two different things. We all have personal struggles with our stand. Some of us, it's anger, drugs, lusts, or just hard heartedness. Sin is sin in God's eyes. You must confess to him and repent. We all struggle and sometimes fall. Falling, isn't the important part, it's if and how you get back up and back on track. We follow a loving merciful God, who will help you with this too, when you take it to him. I love you brother, and am praying for you.
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Post by Adrienne on Jul 18, 2016 19:56:33 GMT -5
Hola, Leandro, Dios te bendiga. Eric said it perfectly. We all have struggles in our stands, and we will fall sometimes.
But as Eric said, you have clearly recognized that what you're doing is wrong. Now it's up to you to choose how to go forward. Something that really struck me in what you wrote is that you say you don't know what's going to happen with "the children that God showed me through prayers and dreams." God has shown you a clear vision of your future - with your covenant wife. This other woman is surely lovely and a nice break from feeling rejected, but is she worth turning away from God's perfect plan for you? The enemy will try to convince you that she is, or that you can somehow have both, but God's way is clear... and even though God's way is sometimes hard, it's always worth it in the end.
And again, like Eric said, we serve a merciful and loving God. He will help you, brother, if you just repent and ask. That is something I am constantly having to remind myself: I don't have to do this alone, because God is with me - if I just ask Him!
And you don't have to be embarrassed to share these things. We all fall and it's not our place to judge, just to speak truth and support one another. Don't isolate yourself. I'm praying for you brother.
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Post by Mary H on Jul 18, 2016 21:26:45 GMT -5
His grace & mercy are greater!! He's ready to forgive you! I'm praying for you brother
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Post by tkk2 on Jul 18, 2016 22:23:36 GMT -5
Leandro, the enemy has been luring you for quite a while now. I pray for your protection and guidance. God can't fix your marriage until he fixes you. That's true for each of us here. You need to heed his calling. He knows the desires of your heart, but you have to follow him, and not your own free will. And trust him. The Lord has given you a glimpse of your future...be strong and fight the evil one. Better yet, fight for God. He loves you.
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Post by Sharon on Jul 18, 2016 23:12:04 GMT -5
Leandro, have you heard this song "one step away" by casting crowns? You aren't a failure because you are not following God. You only have to turn your face back to Him and He will embrace you. I get where you are brother. Some of our group knows, but I don't think you know my and Chris story. We used to sleep with other couples together and I'm ashamed of that, because God for years was telling me if I continued that lifestyle, I would lose my husband. I ignored Him. How do you ignore God?! Well brother you're in it now, so you know just as well as I do. God gave me promises and I shunned Him and continued living in my sins. I was convinced that I could stop that from happening. I mean if I didn't leave my husband, then how could I ever lose him? It wasn't until years later after his 5th physical affair and I don't even know the number of emotional affairs that I realized how I was losing him. I didn't like him anymore. Not even a little bit. And so I left him. God was right. It happened just like He promised it would. I'm telling you this brother to try to convince you that there is a better way. You might think waiting for your wife's heart to soften and enduring that emotional pain is hard, but the path you are taking right now is far worse. You might be happy for a while, but that is fleeting. God has promised reconciliation for your marriage and you yourself have heard those promises. The choices you are making now will all be things you will have to revisit later. Please just quiet your heart and listen to God. He will strengthen you. It's hard to say no right now, especially because I know you are so sad and lonely right now, but this woman is not one with you. Your wife is. God made the two of you one. Please don't give up on that brother. Don't give up on God
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Post by Sharon on Jul 18, 2016 23:31:54 GMT -5
By the way, can I just say what an awesome God we have that he led you back here for encouragement brother. He loves you so deeply that He sees you in this place of sin and has you call yourself out when others would be ashamed. He loves you deeply and He loves your wife and He wants a happy marriage for you.
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Post by leandro on Jul 19, 2016 15:46:12 GMT -5
Thank you guys for your words and prayers. You are all right I can't quit on God now, he didn't bring me all the way here to end up like this. I will come out of this one with his help, he always finds a way to come through my difficulties. I love you all and thank you again!
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Post by leandro on Jul 20, 2016 13:26:13 GMT -5
Sharon I meant to tell you too that your testimony is very powerful, thank you for sharing it
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Post by Sharon on Jul 21, 2016 7:50:50 GMT -5
Brother you are right. He didn't bring you this far in your stand to let you fail. The enemy is like a speck of sand on the beach of Gods power. He can't even compare to Gods power. Our God could go to your wife right now, soften her heart in an instant, and restore your marriage. He is not doing it right now, because He still has work to do in you and in her. Don't lose focus. Keep pressing into God, following him, and leaning who He is. He still has work for you brother, but every day that God is working in you is one day closer to restoration of your marriage. Stay strong brother. We're all praying
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Post by leandro on Jul 27, 2016 22:13:31 GMT -5
Guys,
I've been under attack by the enemy, my mom went to the doctor and told me they found something rare inside of her. My dad is in some kind of trouble with a car that he sold and somebody crashed it and they are sending my dad letters to look for a responsible party. My wife today I discovered that she bought two tickets to Las Vegas under her name and the guy who she has been talking too, I've been getting a lot of heat from by boss too. My dog is very sick and I just left him at the hospital and needed a blood transfusion. I am cornered, I need prayers this is too much to handle. I closed the door that I had open with this other woman from church. I'm gonna push for my marriage as I said I quit and don't want it anymore even though my wife is still talking to this other person from work. God bless you guys.
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Post by erika on Jul 27, 2016 23:54:07 GMT -5
Oh Leandro Im sorry that you're going thru that, I'm going to pray for you, I know that sometimes our problems can go from bad to worse but remember that God is in control and He will fight your battles for you.
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Post by Sharon on Jul 28, 2016 0:49:34 GMT -5
I have mentioned the song a few times now but please listen to "Make a way" by desperation band on YouTube when you get a chance. Where there is no way, God makes away and sometimes he does allow us to get to the end of our rope. Look at Job brother! I know it looks hopeless from this side, but from Gods infinite perspective, he is creating a way in the wilderness to you where there is no possible human way. He may allow you to go through trials, but He will NOT abandon you there! He has a purpose for your pain and He will do a miracle and bring you back out of this. I am praying for you brother. I know you are hurting, but the enemy attacks hard when the Lord is about to have a victory and the enemy only attacks those he is afraid of. God obviously has some huge plans for you!
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Post by leandro on Jul 28, 2016 10:00:36 GMT -5
Thank you Sharon and Erika, I've prayed and cried my self out like I haven't done it in a long time, I guessed God use this situation to bring me back to where I was a few months ago. Sharon I've had that song on repeat all Morning Thank you again for all your prayers.
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