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Post by Adrienne on Jun 9, 2016 21:30:13 GMT -5
Hey friends,
I have been stuck in a funk for a couple weeks. I'm struggling to connect with God and feeling stressed and fragile. I haven't been managing my time well and now I am so out of the habit of spending time with God that I really find it hard to do so.
I also had an argument with G today that ended up in me crying and him leaving.. Later he came back and just wanted to act like nothing happened. We struggle to communicate. We are just so different and it's often frustrating for us both.
I'm about to do what I should have done over a week ago and just pull out my Bible and read it until G gets home from the gym.
But I'd appreciate prayers for me to stop being lazy and to find some purpose and drive again... and for strength so I can stop feeling like I'm on the edge of a breakdown every minute..
Thanks my friends.
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Post by leandro on Jun 9, 2016 22:02:30 GMT -5
Adrianne, I will have you on my prayers for God to lift your arms up and not let you fall back in your relationship with him, I know you are a little caught up with school and G but remember God is more important than all of that together. Keep it up and remember that we are always here for you! You are a great woman of God. Dios te bendiga!!
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Post by Sharon on Jun 9, 2016 23:13:08 GMT -5
Adrienne I am praying sister. The spiritual laziness is sloth and we all fall into it now and again, but don't let that consume you. Forgive yourself, go back to God and practice praying and reading again until you get back into it. Most of all remember what you say - eyes on God! Don't let G distract you
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Post by Mary H on Jun 10, 2016 6:59:02 GMT -5
Oh Adrienne
I hate this for you.. Laziness is the spirit that I believe is what caused me to push Tony out the door.. Don't let it consume you sister.
I know the enemy is working more since G came to that event at your church with you. The enemy subtly got you to feel let down when thoes types of things with G didn't continue happening.. I know that how it was with me. I started building expectations in my mind & would just get unmotivated & lazy. Cast the spirit out in Jesus name! Think about your situation if it were worse. Let it really wrap around your mind that in a split second, everything could come crashing down & thank God that G homes home to you. That he lives with you. That he hasn't commited to a OW & harshly threw her in your face. That he is obeying God at least to the point of staying with his wife. The Holy Spirit is at least softening him enough to keep him home.. God knows how much good we can handle. Oh sister, don't let trouble come before you get your heart back on God. That is what I did & I regret it so much. If only I would have set my heart on Him FULL heartidly & constantly.. If only I would've kept myself completely humble before Him & He wouldn't of had to humble me Himself.. Let's start preparing & staying prepared for all attacks from the enemy by staying in love with Jesus everyday. It all starts in are thoughts. Aggressively be determined to take EACH thought captive to Christ. Remember how much you hate the devil & his works, & remember the only way to fight him is to love Jesus & take each thought captive to Jesus so satan has no foothold. The more I remember I how much I hate satan for what he's done, the more i get stirred up to want to fight him! & again, the only way to do that is to take each thought captive to Christ.
I've been having my ear buds in & listening to the Bible as I go along my day. & listening to a lot of sermons throughout the day. I've found that this has helped a TON! Along with spending time w the Lord before bed & once I wake up. Journaling & casting all worries on Him. Praising Him all day in the midst of pain & huge hurt.. I've never been able to do this before so satans plans are already backfiring!
Im lifting you up sister
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Post by tkk2 on Jun 10, 2016 7:51:05 GMT -5
Praying for your peace and guidance. The 2 scriptures that come to mind are
Galatians 6:9.....Do not give up
Proverbs 31:15...Virtuous woman who rises early
I have a bible in a couple of rooms in the house, but the one i read the most is in my war room. I go there first in the mornings, before the day takes shape and unravels. I start with god. It's definitely an obedient gesture not an open-hearted one that gets me into my war room each day. But then god takes over. My wall is not just prayers. I have a lot of motivating notes up there too....like
"Believe", "never give in, never give up", and "I am for you"
These help me balance it all out. So i guess what I'm saying is even though you are on the edge, be obedient anyway. The holy spirit will wash over you.
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Post by Eric W. on Jun 10, 2016 8:56:18 GMT -5
I have had this verse on my mind a lot over the past few days. Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.
Proverbs 3:5-6 KJV"
IT is so easy to get wrapped up in our own days, our own things, that we end up pushing important things onto a back burner. Unfortunately that can include our time with God. I know I have been guilty of that,and I can definitely tell when I haven't spent time with him. I feel run down and just like my batteries are depleted. We have to plug into the source and as it says in verse 6, in all our ways acknowledge him... Praying for you sister.
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Post by Adrienne on Jun 10, 2016 9:47:32 GMT -5
Thank you so much all my friends for your prayers and support!! I am reminded that I have much to be grateful for and that this journey has its highs and lows but it is my task to stay firm and faithful. And Sharon, yes, EYES ON GOD! I have honestly felt ashamed/embarrassed because I have struggled to follow my own perpetual advice!
But I am really trying now to refocus again. Last night was hard; I read the bible for a while but then G and I had some conflict in the late evening. It's hard for him when I am hurting and he can't "fix it" in a few minutes. I'm reminded of something I think Sharon said about not showing too much of our weakness to our spouses because it is damaging to them. Last night when G got frustrated again I tried to thank him for the good things and lift him up despite my feelings of hurt/sadness.
And this morning I watched a devotional video in which the main message was to praise God even when we don't feel like it! Definitely a message targeted straight at me... I "followed instructions" and had some time of praise and prayer and am going to keep making an effort to carve out that time for God again every day like I used to. He has done so much for me and I have given so little in return.
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Post by marissaa91 on Jun 10, 2016 15:32:28 GMT -5
I've defintely been where you've been Adrienne. I was starting to get to that spiritual lazy point until I decided to try and build it back up this week. It's been slow and not what it should be but it's something.
Don't be embarrassed just keep moving forward because we've all been there. And it's hard when you and your spouse want to fight and resolve things differently. (I definitely can relate).
I try, keyword try, to see things how they see things. To remember what his love language is feed him love in the way he needs. I've also had several convos about strategies we could do that would help keep things from getting to an exploding point. It's still a lot of work, we don't always get it right, but it helps. I hope some of this helps you too. Keep chasing after God, he'll guide you in what to do. You are a such a wonderful woman of God and very inspiring to me, so keep doing what you can to go forward.
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