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Post by Mary H on Jun 7, 2016 21:59:56 GMT -5
I always just hoped that this would never happen.. I called him tonight to confirm the he watch the kids in a couple days for a appointment I have. He answered the phone saying,
"did a kid break their leg? Then why are u calling me?" I asked why he was being that way, & he kept going on about how I need to move on.. I told him I wasn't calling to talk about being with him, just about him watching the kids.. I asked is he around someone that he's trying to be hard infront of because he was being so hateful for no reason. He said he's with his girlfriend... I said well I was just calling about my appointment & he said "F you" & hung up... I'm so hurt.. Shaking.. Somewhere between paralyzed & panicked.. I just keep thinking about our sweet babies... I don't want them to be confused... Mommy loves daddy but daddy don't love mommy & has a girlfriend.. I don't want him to take them anywhere near her.. Oh Jesus help me
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Post by tkk2 on Jun 7, 2016 22:07:40 GMT -5
Oh Mary! That's just awful....but keep in mind that he's just keeping appearances. She's not the one who will be at your children's graduations and weddings. I'm praying for your strength right now. The enemy is turning that knife....beware. Also praying the holy spirit convicts him soon and brings him back to the path towards god and you.
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Post by Adrienne on Jun 7, 2016 22:26:42 GMT -5
Mary, I am so sorry for this hurt! I know how painful it is and I'm really sorry you are going through this! TK is right that the enemy will manipulate this situation as much as possible to make you hurt as much as you can...
I urge you to run to God with this, to keep putting it at His feet every time you want to pick it up. God loves your children even more than you do and He is going to be taking care of them even through this new challenge; you can trust in that.
I will be praying extra for your kids, as well as for conviction for Tony's heart (and the girlfriend's) and strength and wisdom for yours.
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Post by Mary H on Jun 7, 2016 23:00:02 GMT -5
Thank you both.. I know He was preparing me for this. I had a dream a few weeks ago, & lately I could just feel it deep within me. Been praying protection over the kids for 2 days.. Oh Saran got real mad that I've been casting his spirits out of me & Tony & that my faith & trust has sky rocketed.. He won't win. This hurts so much but my trust is in Jesus & satans end is in the pit, mine isn't & neither is Tony's. Praise God that this was reveled so I can pray more specifically & for her too. Thank y'all again so much for your faithfulness & your prayers.. I appreciate each of you so very much.
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Post by marissaa91 on Jun 7, 2016 23:16:45 GMT -5
I'll be praying that the Lord strengths your gift; not to hurt you but to show you how to pray. I can tell you that it hurt when I was being revealed things I didn't want to see but it made the difference in my prayers. I'll also be praying for you, your babies, and Tony's conviction. I hope you can sleep well tonight Mary. Don't let the enemy steal your peace or your joy!
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Post by pstokes522 on Jun 8, 2016 0:06:22 GMT -5
Mary - I haven't been on in a few days, so I've just been reading through all the recent posts. In just the last few days, you have had some profound posts, reminding Tony of past remarks he made, and wise advice for me and others who was hurting. As I was reading what you wrote in this post, my heart sank for you, because I recently felt that same pain. But the first clear thought that came to my mind is that you are being such a strong witness for Christ that Satan is turning up the fire and intensifying his attacks on you. BUT YOU HAVE THE POWER OF CHRIST ON YOUR SIDE! USE IT!!! God has got this - continue to lean into Him and let Him fight for you. I'm praying extra for you tonight.
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Post by Mary H on Jun 8, 2016 8:44:00 GMT -5
I know this is truth
Satan is a spoiled foe, & he won't win. I'm standing in love & forgivness for Tony & Jesus will win his heart all the while transforming mine. The word says no one can snatch His sheep out of His hand. This is only temporary.
I tossed & turned all night.. But I had a dream that this realationship won't last. He may have to bring her around the kids for him to see he don't want to be with her. This will be hard for me if this is infact what God wills for me to allow to happen, but I trust Him & am thankful & praising Him for these new opertunities to build my faith & trust! Just praying protection of the kids & that I keep following the Holy Spirits guidance & resist the devil. He has no authority in my life & definatly doesn't have the last say.
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Post by erika on Jun 8, 2016 19:47:25 GMT -5
Oh Mary I feel for you, but I know God will turn this around and something great is gonna come out of this. Only God can turn a mess into a message, a test into a testimony, a trial into a triumph a victim into a victory. I'm praying for you and Tony !! Remember our problems are only temporary !!!
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Post by pstokes522 on Jun 8, 2016 19:48:54 GMT -5
I know it is hard. My heart breaks everyday at the thought of my beloved D with the OW. But, I keep telling myself that we have Christ on our side and He will be Victorious and have the Glory. I continue to pray for all of us standers.
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Post by Mary H on Jun 9, 2016 9:45:06 GMT -5
Thank you guys
Erika, how are things with you?
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Post by erika on Jun 9, 2016 21:41:51 GMT -5
Hello Mary, I'm good I have been working late these few weeks but I'm grateful for the extra money, my husband has been so good and caring, I'm shocked at the work of God!!. Looking back at this same time last year and realizing how much things have changed I tear up, last year my husband cancelled our vacation trip because he needed time to think wether he wanted to divorce me or not and I ended up going by myself and this year God gave me what the enemy stole from me and now my husband is planning our vacation trip, he's going above and beyond for this trip I'm shocked!!. Mary, God changed my husband in ways I cant explain, He used my husband's friends ( the ones that convinced him to move out ) to tell my husband I'm the best thing that ever happened to him, that left me speechless, I know you're experiencing few bumps on the road but don't worry about anything instead pray about everything. God will give you back everything that the enemy stole from you !! I'm praying for you Mary!!!
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Post by Mary H on Jun 9, 2016 21:53:31 GMT -5
I don't want my heart to break everyday.. I want to be able to resist that when the thought of them comes to my mind. I want to be able to have thoes thoughts come in, & reject them with scripture before they even get the chance to mess with my emotions.. I've been doing this today & have been suprizingly more successful than a person usually would be 2 days after finding this bad news out... I'm in awe at Gods hand on me.. Just taking these thoughts captive to Christ.. Being in His word, journaling, praying for Tony & others all throughout the day, praising Him all day, listening to sermons & teachings, hearing the Bible in my head phones as I go about the day.. Being so humble before Him.. It's all bearing fruit! This constant day & night anxiety I had has subsided a LOT! I was able to eat a little today! I feel strengthened & I know Christ is healing me as I feed myself with Him & He pours down faith into my heart... I feel so blessed!
All the glory is His! If it wasnt for Him, I would roll around in a very deep depression for a very very long time because of this.. I definatly would've if this happened when we first separated.. He's so Omega & All-knowing... This has humbled me a lot & I just love being so close with our Lord! Praise God!!
I sent tony a text the next morning about how I'm letting him go, but I will never give up on him or our marriage & that I will be here when they split up.
I told him a little about the dream God gave me that night about them splitting up. I asked him not to bring her around the kids because it's not good for them. Asked him if he would just see them here at the house like he's been doing for the past year & 1/2, & told him I can leave the second he pulls up if his issue is that he don't want to be around me.. He ignored that text as I knew he would.
I contacted him today about needing gas $ to take our kids to their doc app.. He ignored.. I called during his lunch break.. He ignored.. I managed to get my dad to help out with that. But then our daughter needed meds.. So I told him & said he has to buy it (I have no income) & he responded asking why she needed meds, but ignored the part about buying it..
It's so frustrating that he's to broke to get diapers, gas for doc app, or meds, but he eats.. I'm sure he has ciggs.. He bought fake urine to pass a drug test the other day.. He has gas to run around & b with his OW.. I know at some point my dad is going to say I need to get child support because he can't keep taking care of us when it's Tony's job. I don't know how all that will play out but I know God & He already knows how it's all going to happen! I can easily get caught up in all the questions & worry but I trust Jesus & He has me here for a reason.
I want to live with peace & joy, even in the midst of crazy hurtful confusing scary curcumstances! Not hardly getting by & hurting all the time! I pray this boldness for all of us!
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Post by Mary H on Jun 9, 2016 21:58:36 GMT -5
It starts with taking each thought captive!
Thinking about what we're thinking about instead of just thinking on whatever the enemy puts in our minds, & then it messes with our emotions..
The battle starts in the mind & im determined to fight with Gods armor & weapons & not get lazy ever again!
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Post by Sharon on Jun 9, 2016 23:09:34 GMT -5
Amen Mary I know it's hard, but God blesses us in awesome and unbelievable ways. He will provide financially for you and the kids.
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Post by marissaa91 on Jun 10, 2016 15:22:58 GMT -5
Amen Erika! What an amazing praise report!
Keep going strong Mary and say out loud, "I don't know how you're gonna do this Lord but I know you'll make a way. I know you'll provide for us."
Saying it over and over out loud brings such faith and confidence in the Lord that it can cause things to shift in the drop of a hat. I'll keep praying for you!
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