Post by Eric W. on Jun 6, 2016 19:12:39 GMT -5
So, today was the day, the lawyers said it would be complete when I went to sign the papers. I have dreaded today coming... Why? I am not really sure. I know in my heart this is just the world's version of done, not God's. I have faith, that God is going to rebuild my marriage, restore my family. Even if I have days where I have to claw and scrap at that thought with sweat and tear slicked hands, holding on to that faith, and belief with everything in me. Over the weekend, I have seen my wife, on a couple of times, and she would have been warmer, if I had the plague. My stepdaughter, is confused. And how could she not be. She is nine, and doesn't even understand what is going on. Shoot, I am 36, and I don't understand it sometimes. I know, God, has a purpose with all of this, even if I don't see it right this moment.
I sit here in this place, alone, listening to the rain fall outside, feeling the rain fall inside. Falling apart, while knowing, God is right here with me. Standing beside me, hurting along with me. How many times, has he been rejected by those he loves. Had them turn their back on him, and walk away... He better than anyone, knows exactly what we each are facing. He has felt this pain, is feeling it all over the world, all the time. Yes, I have hurt today, yes I have struggled today, but as today draws to a close, I am still standing, I am still believing, I am still moving.
I still don't know, if I should post this as a Praise report, or a Prayer Request.
Father, thank you! Just when i fear my world is falling apart, I can look over, and see you there with me. I can look over, and see the tear running down your cheek as well. I can feel the love and the warmth, radiating from you. I can stand up in the assurance, that I am doing as you called, that you feel my struggle, and are walking with me, through it. Lord, I have seen posts over the past few days, of my brothers and sisters, each facing this battle in their own way, each fighting in their own arena. Father, I ask you to stretch out your hand, and grant each of them, peace, wisdom, and a renewal. Breathe new life, into their stand, give them a boulder sized portion of faith, pour out an anointing and blessing upon them, that they don't even know what to do with. Shield them about from the Devil, that they may rest in you. Gird them, in your armor, protect them from the trials of this world. Renew them, that they may take up the fight, fresh, and rejuvenated. Bursting forth, with your awesome glory, to shine a light on the gospel, in the way that only we can. Help us to show unconditional love, agape love. Lord, grant us your love to flow through us, to our prodigal spouse in a torrent overflowing. You are a Good, Good, Father, it's who you are, what you are, and everything you are. Father, I ask these blessings, in your son's Holy, name, knowing they are already done, in your will, at your timing. Amen.
I sit here in this place, alone, listening to the rain fall outside, feeling the rain fall inside. Falling apart, while knowing, God is right here with me. Standing beside me, hurting along with me. How many times, has he been rejected by those he loves. Had them turn their back on him, and walk away... He better than anyone, knows exactly what we each are facing. He has felt this pain, is feeling it all over the world, all the time. Yes, I have hurt today, yes I have struggled today, but as today draws to a close, I am still standing, I am still believing, I am still moving.
I still don't know, if I should post this as a Praise report, or a Prayer Request.
Father, thank you! Just when i fear my world is falling apart, I can look over, and see you there with me. I can look over, and see the tear running down your cheek as well. I can feel the love and the warmth, radiating from you. I can stand up in the assurance, that I am doing as you called, that you feel my struggle, and are walking with me, through it. Lord, I have seen posts over the past few days, of my brothers and sisters, each facing this battle in their own way, each fighting in their own arena. Father, I ask you to stretch out your hand, and grant each of them, peace, wisdom, and a renewal. Breathe new life, into their stand, give them a boulder sized portion of faith, pour out an anointing and blessing upon them, that they don't even know what to do with. Shield them about from the Devil, that they may rest in you. Gird them, in your armor, protect them from the trials of this world. Renew them, that they may take up the fight, fresh, and rejuvenated. Bursting forth, with your awesome glory, to shine a light on the gospel, in the way that only we can. Help us to show unconditional love, agape love. Lord, grant us your love to flow through us, to our prodigal spouse in a torrent overflowing. You are a Good, Good, Father, it's who you are, what you are, and everything you are. Father, I ask these blessings, in your son's Holy, name, knowing they are already done, in your will, at your timing. Amen.
