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Post by Sharon on May 26, 2016 20:58:28 GMT -5
Y'all know I've been hearing from God again and again about Chris needing to go to this workshop and he's come up with a lot of excuses, but I feel that God is going to remove those obstacles if Chris steps out in faith. We were talking about his next drill weekend today and he just found out it is the week BEFORE the workshop! Not the same week! So God has already removed that obstacle! I prayed for God to give me His words and wisdom and when I got home asked if we could speak. I told Chris I really believe he needs to faithfully register for this workshop and God will make it happen. He said okay, register him and I told him he has to do it himself, but I called the number and gave him the phone. The man on the phone was great and spoke so much truth to Chris and in the end, told Chris to get the days off work and call back and he will finish signing him up. Chris is going to ask for the days off tomorrow. Please pray that he truly decides to go and asks for the time off and that he is able to get it. The Lord says to ask and we will receive and I know in my heart that this will be a huge milestone for Chris if he chooses in faith to do it. He told me plainly that he doesn't want to and I said I know and I won't force him to go. He said he is feeling forced and I told him that God will call us to do these things sometimes that we don't want to do. This is for him and he has to decide on his own, but I know that God will bless him overwhelmingly if he just chooses to do it, even though he doesn't want to. Please pray with me for deep conviction from God for Chris and that even though he doesn't want to, that he will hear from God what I have heard, that he needs to go, and pray that he chooses to obey.
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Post by Eric W. on May 26, 2016 21:03:34 GMT -5
Praying for you both Sharon.
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Post by Adrienne on May 26, 2016 22:04:29 GMT -5
I'm joining with you in prayer for this cause, Sharon!!
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Post by Sharon on May 27, 2016 9:43:04 GMT -5
This morning I snooped Chris's phone again. I felt God telling me that I was going to get caught, but I did it anyways and of course I got caught. We said I love you's and left for work, but he's texting me now asking why I snooped. I told him I have insecurities and I don't trust him. I am human and I want to trust him, but it won't happen overnight. I said I would really like to see him go to this workshop. I know it would help him a lot but it would also help me to see him trying. He complained that it's too expensive (which was one of his arguments last night and last night I had told him he doesn't consider our money in any other situation so he shouldn't worry about the cost for this). He was trying to dig me a little I guess he said "happy anniversary by the way" oh yeah...it's our anniversary today. I asked why he was being like that? That he can't force trust into me. That I want it but it is something I have to learn and I intend to go to a workshop for healing for myself but only God can do this work in me. Same way that I have to learn trust, he has to learn to kill this iniquity and that starts with getting the right tools. Everything he has tried has ended him up here with a wife who loves but doesn't trust him. He said the bottom line is he wants me to stop snooping and ask him if I need to look at his phone. I said yes I will ask and I'm sorry and will he promise to be honest. He said yes, so I asked are you intending to ask for the time off work to go to his workshop or are you intending to skip it? He hasn't answered me...so he's pretty much answered. It was back and forth conversation until that question and now he's suddenly disappeared. Please just pray. Pray for peace for me and focus on God. I want to see my soul mate healed, but I can't heal him. I want to see my own soul healed, but I can't heal me either. I need God so badly in this right now to comfort me and heal me. To intervene on Chris's path and give him a revelation. To force something that Chris doesn't want for his best interest. Chris has never been one to make any sacrifice. He always has to somehow benefit if he is going to do anything. He doesn't see the benefits to this workshop and I pray that God will reveal that to him. That he would choose to go even though he doesn't want to.
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Post by leandro on May 27, 2016 10:01:32 GMT -5
Sharon I will keep you and Chris on my prayers, like I said before I know what it feels to be on Chris's shoes, Last year around this time I did not want to go to a marriage course offer by my church that my wife wanted to go because I said I did not want to spend my Friday's nights in church. And I remember my wife and my parents in law telling multiple times to go but I just did not want to go, and the more my wife asked me to go the less interested I was in going. So my point is just leave it up to God lets ask him all together to touch Chris's heart and to make him want to go. Sharon keep strong!! God bless you.
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Post by Sharon on May 27, 2016 13:15:35 GMT -5
Leandro thank you so much for sharing that! Yea Chris is exactly that way. The more I push the more he resists. He had made up several reasons why he couldn't go in the first place and I just kept praying that God would remove those obstacles and He did remove the military obstacle and when I talked to Chris last night about how he can go to the workshop now he said "what workshop?!" He had completely disregarded it in his mind because he had come up with enough excuses as far as he was concerned to not do it. But when I insisted and gave him the phone to talk to the guy about going, Chris kept muting the phone to tell me why he shouldn't go. He doesn't have to go. I don't want to force it and it really isn't for me. I know it will help him if he goes. I know he will have a great start to healing. But if he doesn't go, I know God will make another way. He has a plan for all of this, whether it's this conference or something else. God will make a way
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