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Post by annie on May 18, 2016 13:07:20 GMT -5
I need your prayers. I've had a lot of peace. Which I am thanking God for. Today has been super hard. I got confirmation that the OW is indeed pregnant. The rest is just social media attention- as she has posted on Instagram first that they were engaged and now that they are married. She also has a fb that I broke down and checked and there is nothing on there about being married or engaged. Not even any pictures of her and Lucas. She did confirm the baby though- due on Christmas. I'm at a loss right now- wondering how I will get through that holiday with our kids- what will "our" family look like now. How will our family celebrate holidays- or even continue on. This is really the first time I've let a tear fall down my face because of this, and Lord please hear me cause my heart is destroyed right now.
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Post by Eric W. on May 18, 2016 14:26:56 GMT -5
Annie,
I can't image how hard this must be for you, but you have to trust and believe in God. My wife has a daughter from her first marriage, and not a morning goes by, that I don't think of my beautiful, smart, loving stepdaughter. You may look at today, and have trouble imagining tomorrow with him/her in your picture, but I promise you, God, can work amazing miracles, beyond your greatest dreams, that someday, you may not be able to imagine your life without him or her.
I will pray for you, and with you for guidance, and perspective. There are things that we can't see in our valley of despair, that God can see from his throne in heaven. Obstacles, twists and turns in the trail, and temptations that lead the wrong direction.
Father, Annie, is hurting, and lost for the moment. Lord, speak to her heart, speak to her soul, speak to all that is her, and give her comfort, give her peace, give her direction. God, we know that you have only good intentions for us, and though we may not see or understand the path that we sometimes have to take, please reassure us that as long as we walk with you, we are walking the correct way. Father, you care for the birds of the sky, and the flowers of the field, who do not have to strive or worry about this, that, or tomorrow. You always provide and care for them. Father, let us see the flowers, and hear the birds today, and be reminded of your love, and care for us as well. I ask these things in the name of your son, Jesus, that your will may be done as it is in heaven. Amen.
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Post by annie on May 18, 2016 14:47:50 GMT -5
Thank you Eric. I needed those words. My mind has been flooded. I needed to stop and see beyond. I know God would have only allowed this for good. I can't see that now, but yes, someday I will. You are in my prayers as well. I know this is a hard time for many of us here. Lord, please bring about many Damascus Road experiences for our prodigals. May these circumstances change us into who you desire us to be- so we can boldly be the husbands/wives you created us to be. Amen.
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Post by annie on May 18, 2016 15:36:44 GMT -5
They did get married. I'm lost.
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Post by annie on May 18, 2016 15:50:07 GMT -5
I can't take this. I don't want to live in this moment.
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Post by annie on May 18, 2016 16:32:20 GMT -5
I'm spiraling down. Down. I never dreamed this would happen. I wanna scream and know why? I've been a faithful stander. I've tried my best most all of the time. I'm sorry for the times I failed.
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Post by Eric W. on May 18, 2016 17:21:45 GMT -5
Annie,
As much as this stand can feel like it sometimes, this isn't a punishment for us, or for our prodigal. What if these circumstances are the only way God can get us, or our prodigal spouse, or even someone we don't know, but that knows us. Maybe your stand and trust in God will fuel someone else to stand and believe fighting cancer, or addiction. I know if, God forbid, one day my stepdaughter has a substance abuse problem... I want her to have someone she can look to, and say that person, they believed God could fix it, when the world said no. A light of hope for my daughter would mean the world to me. I can't believe God, loves his sons and daughters any less.
The depression, the hurt, that's normal, to be expected. Grieve for what you are missing for the moment, but don't stay there. Lay all of this at God's feet, turn today over to him. Let him worry and stress about how tomorrow is going to turn out. There are things in this world that we have no control over. But we can control if we allow them to control us. I will continue praying for you sister. For peace, for direction, and for comfort. Allow Jesus to be your husband.
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Post by erika on May 18, 2016 20:30:11 GMT -5
Annie,
I'm so sorry you're going thru this but I know God is in control, you just have to trust that He will use this for good, I know He will. Don’t lose confidence in yourself or in God when things don’t go your way. When things get off track, it doesn’t mean that God’s wonderful plan (Jeremiah 29:11) for your life will never happen at all. Keep your faith and hold on to it unswervingly. Hebrews 10:23 said, “Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful.” I'm gonna pray for you.
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Post by leandro on May 18, 2016 21:42:23 GMT -5
Annie, don't give up on God now, you have to see life through this, I know is painful but remember that all things work together for good. God will not leave you where you are right now, he will get you through this. I will pray for you and please don't let down your guard with God. “And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28 ESV bible.com/59/rom.8.28.esv |
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Post by annie on May 19, 2016 9:26:39 GMT -5
Thanks for the replies Erika,Eric, Leandro. I am trying to just keep swimming right now. I am trying to keep my eyes on Jesus, but wow- this is the hardest thing ever. I realize I have to wait. Wait. Have more patience. Complaining won't help. This hasn't been a short stand for me already. 4 years off and on. I've seen false starts. I just thought 2 months ago we were being restored and now here I am telling you all this news that he had married OW and expecting a baby with her. I guess he can run from God, but he can't hide forever. I may never see my prayers answered this side of heaven. I may just have to accept that.
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Post by Sharon on May 19, 2016 9:44:21 GMT -5
Annie Eric said it perfectly. Grieve for the moment for what you have lost, but sister remember that God has called you to this stand with a purpose and he will not allow the Devils schemes to ruin the awesome plans he has in store for you. The devil is not even close in power to our God.
I know it is easy to look directly in front of us and see the valley of the shadow of death and all the chaos before us, and believe that the enemy has won, but God is our shepherd. He will lead us through the chaos, comforting and teaching us. He will restore our souls. He will lead us to his table where he has a feast prepared FOR US! Right in front of our enemies, he will bring us into His glory and we will be filled and overfilled that our cups will run over.
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Post by william on May 19, 2016 11:01:39 GMT -5
Annie,
I posted this in another thread however I wanted to share it again. I wish I had some magical words that could help ease your pain but I don't, what I do know is that God himself does. Remember Jesus felt all the sin of the entire world on the cross when he was separated from God. What I do know is that God has a plan in all of this don't give up faith, I'm praying for you sister.
Through out life we have many "ups & downs", think about it this way my friend.
When you seem or feel your in a "dark time or place" in your life, your going thru one of those valleys in a mountain range. You must go thru it to reach the other side, it gets darker earlier when the sun begins to go down when we are in those valleys which makes it seem that there is more darkness than light. But, rest assured God is with you every step you take. He made the valleys, the darkness, the sun and mountain tops. If we were to never travel in the valley of darkness we would not learn to walk by faith instead of sight. As we learn what God is trying to teach us by surrendering to him in those times we can truly see & appreciate blessings of beauty in the sun shining mountain tops then when we self reflect on where we started from to where we end up we will understand and be thankful for not only the blessings in our life but also for the trials.
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Post by Adrienne on May 19, 2016 13:14:37 GMT -5
Annie, I'm really sorry that you're experiencing this pain. I am praying for you and your family. I know God has a plan, even though often we can't see it... the thought I just had was of Mary's pain when she saw her son Jesus die on the cross. Yet God's plan was so much bigger than that dark day... I will continue in prayer for you and yours.
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Post by annie on May 22, 2016 16:55:58 GMT -5
Thank you all for the continued prayers. I have definitely felt them. I have had many ups and downs these last few days. From wondering how I will make it to- to knowing there is beauty to come from this. I just can't see it. I've not gotten much sleep and have really not been able to do much but find distractions. Even praying has been hard. This is as cold and mean as Lucas as ever been to me. I've never experienced anything like this. Please be in prayer for me financially as he is trying to withhold my half of our tax refund and also lower what he gives me in support for our kids to help him support his new family. as emotionally drained as I am, I physically and financially need that help from him. Thank you all.
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Post by Mary H on May 22, 2016 17:07:14 GMT -5
Praying!
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