Post by william on Mar 5, 2016 17:02:58 GMT -5
As most if not all of you know I was the one who sinned against our marriage and my wife, on Feb 25th she said she was going to file papers. Well as our weekend work schedules go I'm off-she works & vice versa so this weekend I'm off, yesterday when was at house and was leaving I told kids bye, & asked " I would like to give you a hug is that ok? She gave me like a scared half hug, I said come on give me a hug-she did little more of a hug.
When we were around each other I caught her looking at me few times, hasn't looked at me like that in years. I texted her after I left that she looked beautiful (she did just like the first time I saw her), and that I just wanted a hug & was no ulterior or sexual motives, (I gave her the biggest hug very first time we met). Her reply was "I know, I'm sorry I don't know how to act"
I told her "be yourself, be who you are, and I'm not playing any mind games, nor do I have an ulterior motive for how I act, what I say or what I am doing. What you have seen is me whether you choose to believe or not is not my decision. I am not "acting" I am what & how I am. Do I love you and want to be married to you and grow old, yes & 1000x yes. will that ever change-no. do I demand or expect you to-no. Do I believe, trust and have faith in God that his work is not done-absolutely. You should not be scared to speak to me or worried how to act, be yourself that's all."
I don't know what she meant don't know how to act? Do I ask her? Leave it alone? I prayed till 337am this morning and still don't know, I do believe God is softening her heart, I do miss my wife, family, home and all, but more so I miss my closest friend. So please pray for me to hear what God wants and for him to continue his work in us.
When we were around each other I caught her looking at me few times, hasn't looked at me like that in years. I texted her after I left that she looked beautiful (she did just like the first time I saw her), and that I just wanted a hug & was no ulterior or sexual motives, (I gave her the biggest hug very first time we met). Her reply was "I know, I'm sorry I don't know how to act"
I told her "be yourself, be who you are, and I'm not playing any mind games, nor do I have an ulterior motive for how I act, what I say or what I am doing. What you have seen is me whether you choose to believe or not is not my decision. I am not "acting" I am what & how I am. Do I love you and want to be married to you and grow old, yes & 1000x yes. will that ever change-no. do I demand or expect you to-no. Do I believe, trust and have faith in God that his work is not done-absolutely. You should not be scared to speak to me or worried how to act, be yourself that's all."
I don't know what she meant don't know how to act? Do I ask her? Leave it alone? I prayed till 337am this morning and still don't know, I do believe God is softening her heart, I do miss my wife, family, home and all, but more so I miss my closest friend. So please pray for me to hear what God wants and for him to continue his work in us.
