Realization, confirmation, or confusion...
May 10, 2016 10:14:33 GMT -5
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Post by Eric W. on May 10, 2016 10:14:33 GMT -5
Over the past several days, I have had this recurring theme pop-up of posts across social media, statements, scripture, dreams, and this morning a more specific sign.
Social media, I keep seeing posts about "rejection is God's way of protecting you", "sometimes a no, is because God has a better yes in store", "stop holding on to something God wants you to let go". They have been from different sources, in different ways, and I boiled those down, not specific posts.
Yesterday, I started reading the book of Hosea, and God told him to marry a prostitute, and that she would be unfaithful. After a time he calls Hosea to put his wife away, and she takes up her role of prostitute again. This is meant to be a comparison to the Jewish people who had turned away from God, and worshiped other gods before Babylon overthrew them and scattered the nation.
Last night, I had a dream, and I don't recall most of it, but one part has stuck in my mind. My wife saying she is looking for someone. Again I don't recall the specifics of the dream once I woke up, but I get the feeling that she is looking for a replacement for me. A new "lover" as in Hosea... I woke up with this foreboding feeling.
My morning devotional was to not quit, that if we make mistakes to carry on, and do the right thing. I prayed enter reading it, that God guide me. Like Jesus in the Garden, I prayed that he take this cup from me, that I don't want this, but for his will to be done, not mine. I knew I would be on the interstate doing some travel this morning, and for a sign, that if the divorce was his will for him to show me a specific semi trailer, that if I was supposed to continue fighting to show me a different specific semi trailer. That I want his will first and foremost.
I get on the road after grabbing breakfast heading to work, and the first truck I see is pulling a double trailer that I asked for if I was supposed to stop fighting... And the rest of the drive I never saw another one of either that I asked to be shown.
Now, I don't believe God is telling me to stop standing, but I believe he is telling me that the divorce is going to go through. Maybe, like Hosea, I have to let her go for an appointed time. I still have hope and faith that he will restore my marriage, in his timing. Just, kind of in shock this morning, because this wasn't something I was fully prepared for. I am supposed to sign divorce papers tomorrow or Thursday at her lawyer...
Social media, I keep seeing posts about "rejection is God's way of protecting you", "sometimes a no, is because God has a better yes in store", "stop holding on to something God wants you to let go". They have been from different sources, in different ways, and I boiled those down, not specific posts.
Yesterday, I started reading the book of Hosea, and God told him to marry a prostitute, and that she would be unfaithful. After a time he calls Hosea to put his wife away, and she takes up her role of prostitute again. This is meant to be a comparison to the Jewish people who had turned away from God, and worshiped other gods before Babylon overthrew them and scattered the nation.
Last night, I had a dream, and I don't recall most of it, but one part has stuck in my mind. My wife saying she is looking for someone. Again I don't recall the specifics of the dream once I woke up, but I get the feeling that she is looking for a replacement for me. A new "lover" as in Hosea... I woke up with this foreboding feeling.
My morning devotional was to not quit, that if we make mistakes to carry on, and do the right thing. I prayed enter reading it, that God guide me. Like Jesus in the Garden, I prayed that he take this cup from me, that I don't want this, but for his will to be done, not mine. I knew I would be on the interstate doing some travel this morning, and for a sign, that if the divorce was his will for him to show me a specific semi trailer, that if I was supposed to continue fighting to show me a different specific semi trailer. That I want his will first and foremost.
I get on the road after grabbing breakfast heading to work, and the first truck I see is pulling a double trailer that I asked for if I was supposed to stop fighting... And the rest of the drive I never saw another one of either that I asked to be shown.
Now, I don't believe God is telling me to stop standing, but I believe he is telling me that the divorce is going to go through. Maybe, like Hosea, I have to let her go for an appointed time. I still have hope and faith that he will restore my marriage, in his timing. Just, kind of in shock this morning, because this wasn't something I was fully prepared for. I am supposed to sign divorce papers tomorrow or Thursday at her lawyer...
