Not against me

I don't want to forget this again. I keep getting so hurt and offended thinking I need to defend myself against Chris when he acts selfishly. What he does isn't against me. It honestly has almost nothing to do with me. It is selfish, but self destructive, so it is against himself. But more then anything, it is against God. God who created and loves him and knows him more deeply and intimately than he know himself. He suffers so much more seeing his son fail. He created him for more then this. I can't keep being selfish my reacting like a victim. God is strong and has a plan. I have to trust that. He is good. He won't let this keep on.