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Post by Adrienne on Apr 30, 2016 10:50:19 GMT -5
It's been a while but we had another terrible morning, another fight.
He just left because I couldn't get it together enough to stop crying.
Sometimes I feel like it will never get better... Although I know in my head that's a lie.
Please help me pray.
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Post by Eric W. on Apr 30, 2016 12:17:21 GMT -5
Praying with you, Adrienne. We have to remember it's not about our timing, or our way. Stay strong sister.
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Post by Mary H on Apr 30, 2016 12:42:29 GMT -5
Praying Adrianne!
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Post by annie on Apr 30, 2016 14:37:37 GMT -5
Praying for you Adrienne.
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Post by leandro on Apr 30, 2016 15:39:15 GMT -5
Adrianne stay strong!! God will not let you down, all the prayers and time that you have pit in in your marriage will not go in vane.
“And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you.”
1 Peter 5:10 ESV
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Post by erika on Apr 30, 2016 16:41:05 GMT -5
I'll be praying for you and your husband.
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Post by Adrienne on Apr 30, 2016 16:54:12 GMT -5
Thanks, friends. He came back a little while ago and brought flowers but got on his phone almost right away and hasn't really wanted to talk or interact much. I said sorry for my part in the argument and he didn't, but maybe he was trying to express his apologies in the flowers? I am still feeling emotional and raw so I've been trying to kind of keep my distance a bit because I know if I cry again he'll flip out.
I know the root of it is my fear (always)... I have been feeling a bit distant from God but I need to pray more and really, I need to just trust in His plans for my future. I freak out about if I'll be able to make it in the career I've been in grad school for the past 4 years for (2 years to go), and I worry about whether he'll ever want to have kids with me, and I get anxious about if he'll cheat again. I need to stop fixating on all this unknown about the future and just focus on the present, trusting in God that His plans for my future are perfect...
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Post by Adrienne on May 1, 2016 9:35:29 GMT -5
Thank you again everyone for your prayers. I really appreciate the support that I always find here!!!
A little praise update: we had a tense afternoon yesterday when he came home (after a few hours out). Then I went to church in the evening. When I got to church (before going in) I texted him to try and explain my emotional reactions to the argument more clearly and apologized again for being controlling and getting so emotional. As I was typing that he was actually also typing and he sent me an apology for getting so angry and being mean in his frustration. So even while the fear at the root of the argument yesterday is still an issue, it was nice to kind of officially "make peace."
Then in the evening after church he had checked the mail and found the immigration paperwork... (separate post). But I'll update about that on the other post!
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Post by Sharon on May 2, 2016 1:26:20 GMT -5
Adrienne I am praying sister. I completely understand where all the anxiety and fear is coming from, but remember that God has a plan for you and has done miracles time and time again in your marriage and in your life. He has an awesome future planned for you that involves having to go through these trials to reach that deeper spiritual level of trust with the lord. Please put your faith in him and keep your eyes focused and He will not abandon you.
One thing I wanted to remind you (and you know I struggle with it too) is to look at Jesus to be your comfort and your strength, not your husband. I've started praying recently "Lord, Chris is a lousy god and I don't want to idolize him anymore". He will let you down if you run to him for your comfort when things are difficult. God will never let you down though. He is an awesome God and He never abandons us and He never fails.
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Post by Adrienne on May 3, 2016 10:16:38 GMT -5
Thank you Sharon for that reminder; I think I need to hear it everyday!!! :-D It is so hard but I am really really trying to take my eyes back off my husband and put them back on God. When I think about the future I always start tripping up; God has reminded me and I just need to listen: I need to focus on the PRESENT!
Thanks for the prayer support everyone; I appreciate you all so much!
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