Post by Mary H on Apr 16, 2016 9:46:35 GMT -5
Tony didn't come home again last night.. He also ignored me.. It was really hard. My emotions took hold & I called & texted him way too much.. Thankfully I didn't say anything toxic, just that I know he's better than this... It's the hardest to be ignored... Especially when we were just intimate that morning.. It's so confusing & so hard to trust Jesus last night/today.. I know Tony pulls away when he's feeling a stronger pull to turn to Jesus, but it's hard to focus on heavenly things & so easy to focus on how I feel.
He wrecked his car, so he's been driving the car my parents let me use.. He actually wrecked the last car they let me use, so when they gave me the keys to this one they told me not to let him drive it. He didn't come home with the car last night & my parents are going to be here in a few hours.. He's at school right now, but I was planning to take him to school today so my parents wouldn't be upset that he has their car, but instead he ignored me & didn't come back... So now I'm not sure what to tell them when they get here... I'm hoping he comes home after school because if not my parents will be very upset that he has their car.. I think he will because he has to at least get clothes I guess, but I'm just unsure of how that will go & having trouble with trusting Jesus.. It's hard to explain to my parents because if he brings the car & then has someone come get him, they will think that he's just using me.. I don't know what to say to that because I sorta feel like he IS just using me; yet trying not to focus on how I feel..
He's my husband & if he's using me then he alone will have to answer to Jesus I guess will be my response... I've been so sirred up lately & on fire for Jesus! This is getting me off track a bit. Last night before this, the Lord gave me John 6:16-21
When evening came, his disciples went down to the sea, got into a boat, & started across the sea. It was now dark, & Jesus had not yet come to them. The sea became rough because a string wind was blowing. When they had rowed about 3 or 4 miles, they saw Jesus walking on the sea & coming near the boat & they were frightened. But he said to them, "it is I; do not be afraid." Then they were glad to take him into the boat, & immediately the boat was at the land to which they were going.
This speaks to me so boldly that I have to trust Jesus! During this storm where Tony seems to far & my emotions are blowing around causing my sea to become rough, I have to trust that Jesus is the great I Am! Let him into my boat aka heart/mind & he will get us to our destination.
Please back me up in prayer today friends
Thank you!
He wrecked his car, so he's been driving the car my parents let me use.. He actually wrecked the last car they let me use, so when they gave me the keys to this one they told me not to let him drive it. He didn't come home with the car last night & my parents are going to be here in a few hours.. He's at school right now, but I was planning to take him to school today so my parents wouldn't be upset that he has their car, but instead he ignored me & didn't come back... So now I'm not sure what to tell them when they get here... I'm hoping he comes home after school because if not my parents will be very upset that he has their car.. I think he will because he has to at least get clothes I guess, but I'm just unsure of how that will go & having trouble with trusting Jesus.. It's hard to explain to my parents because if he brings the car & then has someone come get him, they will think that he's just using me.. I don't know what to say to that because I sorta feel like he IS just using me; yet trying not to focus on how I feel..
He's my husband & if he's using me then he alone will have to answer to Jesus I guess will be my response... I've been so sirred up lately & on fire for Jesus! This is getting me off track a bit. Last night before this, the Lord gave me John 6:16-21
When evening came, his disciples went down to the sea, got into a boat, & started across the sea. It was now dark, & Jesus had not yet come to them. The sea became rough because a string wind was blowing. When they had rowed about 3 or 4 miles, they saw Jesus walking on the sea & coming near the boat & they were frightened. But he said to them, "it is I; do not be afraid." Then they were glad to take him into the boat, & immediately the boat was at the land to which they were going.
This speaks to me so boldly that I have to trust Jesus! During this storm where Tony seems to far & my emotions are blowing around causing my sea to become rough, I have to trust that Jesus is the great I Am! Let him into my boat aka heart/mind & he will get us to our destination.
Please back me up in prayer today friends
Thank you!
