Prayers

Please keep me and Lucas in your prayers. I've been trying really hard to find and keep my job amidst all these circumstances. Lucas has made it known or appear to me that he's been having really bad days- things in his life are going bad- and he always seems down and depressed. I had thought perhaps problems with OW again- but it was brought to my attention that she has been staying at his house with him. It just really hurt me to know he so quickly has her back staying with him. I know I have heard God whispering to me that this is how is he running from Him- he is using this to dodge and hide from how the Holy Spirit is convicting him. It is still hard. My heart just aches for all of us. I know there is great reward for what we are doing here. People are constantly telling me to move on- Lucas doesn't deserve me or my loyalty. Sometimes I don't even know how to answer that. I know he doesn't. But I don't deserve the love Jesus displayed/displays for me.