Post by william on Mar 4, 2016 18:28:20 GMT -5
I'm William 39yrs and have been with my wife Allison (37yrs) for almost 10yrs married for almost 7ys and have 3 kids. We considered our selves Christians, and did go to church and spend time together a lot. Time went by and stopped going to church, fights began, attitudes, hurting, not communicating, blaming, stress, ignoring each other and so on. I became detached from God because I let bitterness of everything that was going on and the feelings I had as a result detach me further from my family and God. I had turned to watching pornography / self gratification as a means of escape and as a result ended up sending explicit pictures to someone & my wife saw the images. I sinned against our marriage, our family, our friends. i was asked to leave and have been out of the house since 1-2 week in January, and have been staying in an extended stay hotel.
I had spent several nights with no communication with my family or friends, as to which I cried out to God, and begged for his forgiveness and mercy. I poured out everything and told him I am broken and if he will transform me I will live my life according to his will. I submit and surrender everything in me several times a day. My wife no longer wears her wedding ring, and when she told me she wanted to file the papers for divorce - she was upset and all I could & wanted to do is pray for her and that I trusted God and I know what he has laid on my heart and I will not disobey him again. Recently she has softened a little and we have talked more the past week than we have in years.
I don't know what she will do and it's not my concern, I trust in God with everything I have. I tried to live my life according to my will and I was consumed by the devil and I choose to seek God every moment of the day and with everything I do and say.
I had spent several nights with no communication with my family or friends, as to which I cried out to God, and begged for his forgiveness and mercy. I poured out everything and told him I am broken and if he will transform me I will live my life according to his will. I submit and surrender everything in me several times a day. My wife no longer wears her wedding ring, and when she told me she wanted to file the papers for divorce - she was upset and all I could & wanted to do is pray for her and that I trusted God and I know what he has laid on my heart and I will not disobey him again. Recently she has softened a little and we have talked more the past week than we have in years.
I don't know what she will do and it's not my concern, I trust in God with everything I have. I tried to live my life according to my will and I was consumed by the devil and I choose to seek God every moment of the day and with everything I do and say.