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Post by Mary H on Apr 1, 2016 21:57:24 GMT -5
Wagin this war is wearin me out..
Feeling like I'm ready to quit again
Prayers please
Thank you
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Post by Adrienne on Apr 1, 2016 22:17:58 GMT -5
Praying for you tonight and every day Mary!
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Post by tkk2 on Apr 1, 2016 22:19:42 GMT -5
Praying for your strength sister! There are days and moments we all feel defeated. But stay in prayer....god's got this. Your are a smart woman who loves her Lord and has made a stand. Praying for your peace in the storm. The sun will rise again in the morning and god will be right there for you. Breathe.
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Post by Adrienne on Apr 1, 2016 22:21:50 GMT -5
Dear God, I thank you for Mary's presence in this group, for her strength in prayer and her compassion to share your word and love with others, for her deep desire to connect with your Holy Spirit!! Tonight I know she is struggling; I know you can feel her pain and that you don't like to see your precious daughter hurting...I ask you please to be with her and to give her strength. Cultivate that patience that you are growing in her and guide her to watch her words and her thoughts vigilantly, especially in regards to Tony. Shield her mind from fear and from the influence of the enemy and cleanse the weaknesses of the flesh from her, and strengthen the fruits of the Spirit. Remind her that you are with her always and that you have a special plan for her and for her marriage, in your perfect timing. Whisper into her mind memories of how you have blessed her abundantly and repeatedly, beyond anything she could imagine. Console her tonight and refresh her faith and trust in you please Lord, and bless and guide her always, according to your divine will above all! In Jesus' name, amen.
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Post by Adrienne on Apr 1, 2016 22:22:59 GMT -5
Mary, TK's last comment made me think of a song I like, "Just Breathe" by Jonny Diaz... You should give it a listen, maybe it will speak to your heart
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Post by william on Apr 1, 2016 23:07:01 GMT -5
Mary, We all get tired and worn down but don't give in or up. That feeling / thought is the enemy at work. Like Adrienne and TK said pray-take it to our Father sister. Sister, Go to a place where you can sit undisturbed for about 5 minutes. Listen to Jocelyn Brown "Leaning, Praise the mighty name of Jesus" live at the Abby. Before tit begins concentrate on your breathing...in thru your nose hold it for a 5 count then out thru your mouth as it plays listen to every word... Lord, we come to you in prayer lifting up our sister Mary to you. She is weak and weary Lord from standing as you have commended her. As it was written in Matthew 11:28 "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest" for we know Father that it is you who gives us our strength and that it is you who gives us our rest. Lord I pray that your Spirit will fill Mary and renew her strength to continue her stand in your name and that Lord you will give her the peace and rest that she needs so that she may be the fruit of your glory. In your son Jesus Christ name I pray - Amen. youtu.be/CSwn6gw3v_0 |
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Post by marissaa91 on Apr 2, 2016 0:16:33 GMT -5
Praying for you always Mary! I know it's tiring and frustrating but try to find comfort in the Lord.
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Post by Sharon on Apr 2, 2016 1:10:20 GMT -5
Go back to your "record of rights" and remember the times God has shown you His hand. He has moved many mountains for you and Tony recently sister. Don't give up or lose hope - remember God's promises for your marriage. I am in the boat with - I have been feeling down and defeated recently too. God has been reminding me again and again to back off and give God space to do His work. I've been texting Chris much less and not calling at all unless he calls us. It's really hard, but God needs room to work. Those of us with in home prodigals I think have our own unique challenges - mine (and I think yours too) is are we making things too comfortable for our spouses? If they have us waiting on them hand and foot, they won't make any changes. There is no point when they get everything they want. I'm not saying to make things uncomfortable for them, but I am saying to stop acting like his mom and let him make his own mistakes and then live with the consequences. It's hard - we want to be controlling, because they frankly are doing it wrong. It takes a lot for us to stand aside and say "God, I can't control this man, and I don't want to. I give him up to you". I think it will help Tony a lot if you can though Mary. Try practicing the idea of treating Tony as a friend (and brother in Christ), instead of expecting him to fulfill any husband role for you. Look to God to be your husband and worry about yourself and your kids. Let God and Tony worry about Tony.
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Post by Mary H on Apr 2, 2016 7:02:20 GMT -5
Thank each of you for each word... God used all of you to lift me up... Your all so very right.. I had decided to let tony go a couple weeks ago.. That same day, I retreated to waiting on him hand & foot & "chasing" him again. I'm finally back at this place of peace, & letting him go, yet not giving up. He came home after 10pm last night & after reading the Word & prayer I lovingly tried to talk to him about him coming home late all the time. He dismissed me, so I gently told him he's going to lose me soon.. That I'm trying to be strong for him but he seems to not care either way.. He didn't say anything so I went to bed. I expected him to sleep on the couch, as he usually does when I try to talk about things, but he came to bed shortly after.. Today before he left for work, I actually got up to spend time with Jesus (hasn't been happening enough lately) & he just said, " see u later" & left.. this always hurts when he doesn't say I love u & give a hug & kiss because I feel rejected & like I'm losing him, & I was almost tempted to go after him & "chase" him again with my affection, but had so much peace staying in my seat & continuing to read the word.. I think due to your prayers! I love each of you! Thank you!
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Post by Mary H on Apr 2, 2016 7:08:35 GMT -5
Also want to add that I turned in Klove & "breathe" was playing... Thank u!
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Post by fordlindsey5314 on Apr 2, 2016 10:30:48 GMT -5
Praying for you Mary  |
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Post by Sharon on Apr 2, 2016 10:59:59 GMT -5
Mary I can feel how you are feeling. I am exactly the same way - anytime Chris wants anything (even if its something I can feel he wants and not something he's actually asked for - like the kissing before he leaves thing), I always want to give it to him. I don't have to react towards Chris, I have to react towards God and make sure he is my main focus. When my kids ask for things, I have no problem saying no. I need to focus on God and then that will come easier for me with Chris too.
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