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Post by marissaa91 on Mar 4, 2016 10:07:30 GMT -5
The last few days I've come into a time of rest. A time of not texting my husband first or picking up everytime he calls so I can get myself right and prepared mentally and spiritually for this stand. Well yesterday my husband blew up my phone. Did not take me not answering as an option. He kept calling. So I answered. He just wanted to check up on me because I was acting different. In the middle of that conversation he got into things that have been happening with his friends. The same friends that he got so distracted by (and part of the reason I believe he left) were now holding him at an arms length. This entire time I had been praying "God, whatever and whoever is distracting him from you and this marriage, let it fall away." When he told me what happened it was like God telling me "I'm still working even if you don't see it right away." And then when I explained to him what his friends must feel like and why, something clicked in his head and he apologized to me. He apologized for always leaving to be with them and leaving me by myself. Praise the Lord, He is good to me. God is moving.
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Post by Mary H on Mar 4, 2016 10:34:57 GMT -5
Oh Marissa!! I'm so excited to hear this praise report!! God is clearly moving in his heart! He will be restored to the Lord (& you) very soon!
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Post by marissaa91 on Mar 4, 2016 11:32:49 GMT -5
Thank you Mary! It was such an amazing moment for me to experience. My husband is stopping by in a while this morning to talk to me about the apartment and stuff too. I wasn't going to have him over (because of my time of rest that I need. God even gave me a dream that I need to rest and prepare myself) but I text him last minute and gave it to God. I said God if you want him to come then let him come and give me the right attitude and words to speak into his life. And now he's coming soon.
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Post by Mary H on Mar 4, 2016 11:39:32 GMT -5
I will be praying! Don't let satan have this time
Be sure your heart & attitude lines up with the Lord like you said & it will go just fine.
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Post by marissaa91 on Mar 4, 2016 12:58:14 GMT -5
I've come to realize that yes, I'm unprepared and need to get my spirit and mind right. He came over just for 10 minutes. He said he didn't have a lot of time. I asked why he came then and he said because he wanted to. So that was something. Other than that though, things felt kind of weird for me. I'm not sure for him but I felt off. We just talked and joked around, I mean it wasn't bad but I couldn't feel God in the time he was here. I really need to step back and pray.
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Post by Mary H on Mar 4, 2016 13:05:59 GMT -5
Your so wise for that Marissa!
God could've moved him to come simple just to show you your heart.
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Post by Adrienne on Mar 4, 2016 13:34:00 GMT -5
I admire you for being able to express that Marissa. That shows your true desire to be right with God BEFORE (or more importantly than) getting to immediate peace with your husband. Very solid reminder of GOD FIRST... I often lose sight of that myself.
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Post by marissaa91 on Mar 5, 2016 2:02:57 GMT -5
So the same thing happened today. I was at a friends and I forgot I had put a video up on my snapchat of my friends kids at her house. Well my husband saw it and a while later he called me. I didn't answer. When I didn't pick up he called my friend. I figured it must be important if he called her to get ahold of me. No, he just wanted to talk to me and tell me about his day. It seems like the less effort and interest I show the more he comes towards me. He even actually asked me to hang out tonight but the catch was that he might be high before I got there so I declined. I said I didn't want to see him like that and I like him just fine when he was sober. Whatever is going on inside of him I know God is definitely moving. He hasn't wanted to just talk to me like this in a long time.
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Post by Adrienne on Mar 5, 2016 11:26:25 GMT -5
That is great Marissa! I love it when we can see and feel God work like this. Be sure to make a note of this in a diary or a prayer book, so next time you are feeling doubtful you can remember the ways God moves so visibly!
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Post by Sharon on Mar 5, 2016 21:54:40 GMT -5
I also am really glad you declines when he said he was getting high. My inclination in the past was always to run to my husband even if it meant sinning with him, but showing him love the way you did that you like him just fine sober is awesome!
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Post by Adrienne on Mar 5, 2016 21:59:45 GMT -5
That's a great point, Sharon! I'm glad you brought it up. I agree - we are supposed to love and accept our spouses even when they sin, but we're not supposed to fall into sin with them. (A key example in my life recently was when I went out to this bar with my husband for the birthday party of a friend of his last weekend.. it was not a place I should have been but I chose to go and it felt so awful.. Even my husband was upset about me being there, not because he didn't want me with him but because he said it didn't feel right for me to be in that type of place!)
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Post by marissaa91 on Mar 5, 2016 22:38:16 GMT -5
Those are good points Sharon and Adrienne! In the moment I just didn't want him to confuse me not yelling at him about it as being ok with it. He understands that too. I'm one of the few people who speaks truth to him that he doesn't get mad at or go off on. I really appreciate all of your perspectives because I never see what I'm doing or saying in the same way you all do. I can be critical of myself sometimes so it's nice to hear Godly perspective.
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