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Post by marissaa91 on Mar 25, 2016 10:51:37 GMT -5
Sorry I've been a little M.I.A lately. Adjusting to my husband and our friend being back has been exhausting but incredibly great! The Lord has blessed me. Since they've been here the house has been deep cleaned and dinner has been cooked almost every night. We've been doing the Love Dare together and he's renewing our lease. We went to evening service on Sunday and he got prophesied over and it turns out he needed it because he was beginning to give up (because of how bad the trial had gotten). God knew. They still smoke weed but they know I don't like it so they keep it out of the house and don't come in really high because I asked them to respect me in that regard. But because I'm being loving and not yelling he's been very open and we've talked about it. I told him I can't look at his sin I have to focus on mine. That I pray and the Lord will change in each of us what needs to be changed. That really spoke to him and he even asked me what sin I had to focus on (he thinks I don't sin, ha!). It was a good talk. He also decided to go to morning service with my family and I on Sunday. It'll be the first time he's seen them since leaving. Him being willing to see them shows me he's planning to stay. So much praise has happened in 1 week!
I will say though I need tips on how to open the word up and stay rooted everyday. I read a devotional everyday and pray but I don't study on my own. I can feel my focus being all over the place because I'm trying to find the right balance still. I went out to a karaoke bar with my coworkers last night because it's our start of spring break and they wanted to sing. So I went to watch them sing and maybe sing myself. I planned on not drinking but after an hour a coworker that I'm close with showed up and I ended up having 2 drinks before I left. I was still sober but waking up this morning I can feel that I need to make sure my eyes are on God and that I'm bearing good fruit.
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Post by Adrienne on Mar 25, 2016 11:38:16 GMT -5
Marissa I love this praise!!! So wonderful to hear. I have been meaning to ask how the Love Dare was going. I pray you both stay strong with it! One day at a time.
Also I think for me just a daily devotional wouldn't be enough. There is something so beautiful about just digging into the word! I am working on a read the Bible in a year on YouVersion. I am going a bit slower than the plan is, but I'm not so concerned about the timeline, just about reading some and studying some each day. I journal as I read so I can reflect on the verses that really speak to me. And then pray when I'm done reading. It's been great for me (when I actually take the time to do it!).
As for going out with your friends and having a couple drinks I don't think that's inherently wrong (considering you stayed sober). It is okay to have fun as long as you are still honoring God in your behavior. (At least that's my opinion). Just stay in prayer for discernment and guidance and carefully evaluate choices as you make them.. Ask yourself "Is this honoring God?"
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Post by marissaa91 on Mar 25, 2016 11:59:15 GMT -5
Thank you Adrienne! The Love Dare is going good. One week down and I think it's helping.
And that's great, I have a journal too that I write in when I read the bible. I just haven't done it in a month (eek!). I go to women's bible study and Wednesday service at times so I think I just get caught up with the busyness. Part of the problem, I think, is I can get up early but I hate to. I know I have to make it a habit though and just do it.
And yes I feel the same way because I never try to drink to get drunk. But I just don't want to be distracted. I've even had to pray that my happiness this week doesn't distract me from God. Yes I should enjoy the blessings God has given me, and I do, but His blessings are not God. Trying to mantain my relationship with Him is what I'm trying to keep up I guess. I worry because I don't feel His presence around as much that I'm in danger of falling away. So I try to check my heart everyday. I hope that makes sense.
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Post by erika on Mar 25, 2016 19:52:46 GMT -5
I'm so happy for you Marissa !!! I also go to a church where we receive prophecy. The first time I received it, I cried so much, it was a wonderful experience, God answered many concerns I had. I was left speechless. I'm so happy your husband received it. I know God is changing your husband's heart. I'll be praying for you guys.
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Post by Sharon on Mar 26, 2016 19:30:23 GMT -5
Marissa thank you for sharing that! Chris is constantly angry at me because he believes I think I am perfect. I'm not going to lie that I have acted like it before, that his sin is so much worse then mine and even pulled an Adam and blamed him for my sin, but the way you said it to him that you have to focus on your sin and can't focus on him. That's awesome and I am going to try to say that when I have an opportunity.
I am really excited to hear about all the blessings since he has moved in and that you've had the chance to show Gods love!
Also about the drinking, I agree with Adrienne. I actually go out with Christian friends and have a few drinks. As long as you are upright and don't lose control of yourself
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Post by marissaa91 on Mar 27, 2016 12:03:19 GMT -5
Thanks Sharon. The Scriptures about not being able to cast the first stone and having a plank in your own eye have spoken to me this week. It's something I didn't do before and I needed too. I'm not any better than him so I can't act like I am.
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