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Post by william on Apr 1, 2016 22:46:00 GMT -5
While I was on here I sent her a picture from my post "sittin around", I can give an explanation besides that it was God that leaned for me to do so. She said "that is really good", which I replied "you really think that?...?" I didn't get an immediate response...I texted
"Allison, I wrote it..." right before I sent it her message of "I don't know" came through the right after "It is really good Will".
She asked what "what is that ur on" and I told her that it was a site that member made for when k-love did away with the group section and that we were a prayer group for those standing for restoration of their marriages and to support each other and grow in our relationship with God. she said "That is really good / glad u r doing it".
My reply was this to her, " I am not doing it for me or for any personal "gain". I am doing it & a part of it because, it is what God has laid on my heart, revealed and commanded me to do thru countless hours and days of fasting and praying. I do believe, know, and have complete faith in God and his powers of transformation, renewing, and reclamation if we truly, whole heartedly, completely surrender our life to him, seek him, listen & hear him, his will shall be done and with that glory and all the praise goes to him.
I am sorry for the pain I have caused, for as much as it hurts you...I felt it tenfold. I know what God has commanded of me and I will not disobey what he has revealed for me to do."
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Post by Sharon on Apr 2, 2016 1:17:59 GMT -5
That's awesome that she liked your song and that she wanted to learn about the group. I have felt for a while that if she could see some of the God inspired things you have shared with everyone in their stands and in your stand, she would see the fruit of the Lord in your life. Her blinders are coming off William.
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Post by Mary H on Apr 2, 2016 7:06:24 GMT -5
I agree with Sharon!
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Post by william on Apr 3, 2016 13:41:10 GMT -5
I had cleaned up the house, washed clothes, and mowed the yard Saturday, so that way when Allison got home today from going out to dinner & having drinks last night for friends B-day she would come home and not have to worry about doing it. She was thankful and said "u didn't have to do that" which I told her I have been doing it for the past several years and knew that she probably wouldn't want to do it today so figured would do what I could so she wouldn't have to.
I also put 2 books along with the one that was in bathroom, they were "Power of Praying Parent", & "Power of a Praying Wife", I don't remember where or when we got those books but there were on my library shelf along with all my other books. I sent here the link for the 5 love language quiz & had asked her to take it, she said she "took it - interesting", I am going to take it now and see what our languages are.
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Post by marissaa91 on Apr 3, 2016 15:27:48 GMT -5
Amen! Keep pouring out all that love on her! And I love the power of praying books! Hopefully she does too!
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Post by Mary H on Apr 3, 2016 19:40:36 GMT -5
Awesome!!! I hope she shares the results with you so you can know how to love her better & hope she responds positively to your results!!!
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Post by william on Apr 4, 2016 0:17:30 GMT -5
Her response imo was from a defensive stance " I don't think our love language were the problem - ", which I replied "I didn't say it was the "problem, that is not what my intention was."
It is what it is.
I told her while "it wasn't the cause, it was definitely a contribution which led to the problems". I shared it with her because I felt that God laid on me to do. I know she is hurting and it is easier to put all the blame on me, to say and think that I was the cause and that I was the only who did wrong. I can't change that, nor am I going to try. |
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Post by marissaa91 on Apr 4, 2016 2:02:57 GMT -5
I'm sorry. As a woman whose been in a similar situation with my husband (before we got married) she is definitely coming from a place of hurt and defensiveness. I can tell you that her emotions are probably all over the place. She loves you but feels betrayed, maybe even wonders what's wrong with herself that would cause you to do such an act, and that's why she hurts so much and is so defensive. It takes time to heal from things like that. I will tell you though that when it happened to me I went through the emotions and with enough time apart and effort on my husband's side to show me his sincerity and love we worked it out and got back together. Just keep doing what you're doing. Keep being gentle with her and her feelings, trust me she needs that. Keep praying and showing her your love and sincerity. Ask God to give you discernment on when to speak up and when to give her space. I fully believe God will get you two through this. If God can do it for us back when we were teenagers and not fully with the Lord, then I know he can do it for you two who have been together for years and are fully seeking God.
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Post by Sharon on Apr 4, 2016 10:49:54 GMT -5
I wanted to suggest to you reading "every mans battle" and maybe attending one of their weekend seminars. Chris has not read it yet, but he agreed to attend the meeting in June here in Denver and I'm praising God for that. The testimonies are amazing - you should read through them on their website when you get a chance
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Post by Mary H on Apr 4, 2016 11:28:55 GMT -5
Tony blames everything on everyone else; not just me although I am the main target. I think the more a person is hurting & miserable with their life, the more they blame others for their issues. All we can do is pray & not let bitterness take root.
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Post by william on Apr 4, 2016 11:53:23 GMT -5
Well brothers and sisters,
My wife messaged me
"The lawyer said the other papers are ready to sign - can u make time wed - u want his number again"
I am saddened...I want to lash out but I won't.
I...my...faith in God will not be deterred cause even more so right now, despite the feelings of sadness, loneliness , lost, pain and regret are temporary. As I am in this hurricane of a storm being tossed about and can't see anything before me with my eyes...with tears flowing and a heavy heart my faith still resides in Him. As I have said before I will praise our great God in my triumphs and I give Him praise in this heartbreaking trial, for Gods glory is always revealed in the end.
My my comfort is in 1 Peter 5:10
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Post by Mary H on Apr 4, 2016 11:58:01 GMT -5
I'm so sorry William... God is planning some serious refining of you through this... He's already taking all that the enemy plans for bad, for good. can't imagine the pain your feeling... Keep pressing on brother.
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Post by tkk2 on Apr 4, 2016 12:57:29 GMT -5
William, stay strong. I'm praying for you. I see hope in your wife....you've conveyed a lot of positive feedback from her. She must be the female twin of my husband....stubborn to the core. Just keep loving her and god thru this.
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Post by fordlindsey5314 on Apr 4, 2016 13:08:42 GMT -5
Aww William, my heart breaks for you! I'll be praying for you.
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Post by Mary H on Apr 4, 2016 13:15:42 GMT -5
I just had the thought of- what if she has hated being separated... She thought it would bring more peace, but it hasn't.. So she thinks divorce will bring peace.. What if very shortly after, is when the break-through will come? What if her divorcing her godly husband & still having no peace, is what it takes for her eyes to opened?? There is hope!
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