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Post by Mary H on Mar 17, 2016 16:06:12 GMT -5
Tony has been waisting money left & right.. All on himself. Things he don't need, but wants. I ask him to call off work one day this week or next so he can go to doc to get on medication for his anxiety so he can quit smoking.. He said he can't afford to take a day off, but then he left work early today for some reason.. He said it's because he wasn't feeling good, but he came home, took a shower, & left to "go to the gym"... I have a feeling he realized its St Patrick's day & decided to go party.. I'm so tired of this all over again.. I even made a really rude comment to him about all of his brand new clothes & shoes he was wearing when he left.. He blew up & left on bad terms.. I called him to try to talk about it but he didn't want to hear it.. I want to focus on Jesus but it's so hard when he treats me & the kids so badly.. Prayers please
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Post by Mary H on Mar 17, 2016 16:13:22 GMT -5
I have to let Jesus work on me.. This insecurity & bitterness about him needing to buy really nice clothes, shoes, tanning...
I need to give him the benefit of doubt & not assume he's going to party, trying impress women with his new flashy appearance, or that he really wasn't feeling good..
I have to let Jesus continue to help me respect Tony because he's my husband & not be rude or get attitudes with him.. Most importantly I need to STOP getting lazy with Jesus!!
All day I've been SO lazy & not prioritizing right at all..
Please help me & the rest of us, Jesus! Heal us & strengthen us as we step out into obedience! Draw our spouses, Lord! I know all they need is to be drawn by You to You just as we are. In Jesus name, Amen
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Post by marissaa91 on Mar 17, 2016 17:08:38 GMT -5
I'm sorry Mary. I understand because mine does the same thing. But you're on the right track. Prioritize your time with God and try not to let negative thoughts take over your mind.
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Post by Adrienne on Mar 17, 2016 18:33:17 GMT -5
Mary, I really really get it. I feel like I identify so much with you right now. I have also been really struggling with bitterness and resentment towards G. I also have been having a hard time with prioritizing my time. I have been getting into the word but then I feel bad because I sleep way too late (on spring break this week) so I read the Bible and then have barely any time to study before G gets home so I constantly feel like I am not using my time well enough.
We have to pray for God to direct how we use our time and then respect it. Pray for the laziness to be cleansed and replaced with a spirit of diligence. And most of all pray for God to harness our thoughts and use them for His glory rather than for our own self-destruction... I'm praying with and for you Mary..
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Post by Mary H on Mar 17, 2016 21:47:15 GMT -5
Amen Adrienne!! I'm sorry your going through this right now... It's not fun.. Yes!! Replaced with diligence! Love how u worded that " for His glory rather than our own self-destruction". I will be praying these things with you for both of us!
I had a dream that I was shooting at a bad guy & protecting Tony from him.. Then today, everywhere I keep reading or hearing scriptures & messages about protection with prayer, faith, etc.. I just got done reading the book I read with my group, & it talked about how a strong godly wife protects her husband.. It went in about how if he feels like you support him, he will be more motivated to change by your influence.. & how we also protect them by being thier helper.. I really feel like the Lord is telling me not to give up because it's about so much more than me.. I'm protecting my husband from a attacker by being obedient to the Lord! I hope this encourages you too!
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Post by Adrienne on Mar 18, 2016 6:03:09 GMT -5
Thank you for that Mary!! It is an encouraging and important thought, for sure. It is so easy to forget that our spouse is not the enemy!! They DO need protection, and it's sad that they don't recognize that themselves. I think Sharon used this comparison once, that it's like a child. Well, we are all in need of our Father God!! We just have to keep trying to let Him work through us to get at these rebellious kids.
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Post by Sharon on Mar 18, 2016 12:27:00 GMT -5
Mary I completely understand how you feel. I hate some of the clothes Chris has because his girlfriend in Korea was with him when he got them. He got a comment from some girl yesterday about his new car. It's hard. Man it is SO hard! I want to burn his clothes and push that stupid car into traffic, BUT then I step back and recognize that he is a fallen human and he is Still using the world to try to fill in the place of God. I recognize there is no way to show him God when he is angry at me and its legit for him to be angry at me for having bad feelings against him because I have emotional stress because of distrust. I have to step back and forgive again. I have to run to God my comforter. I have to have Christ who is love in me. I want him to see nothing but Christ in me. Someday I pray he will have remorse. My hope is for that. And God is going to make that happen, not me. Get out of the way Mary. When Tony is selfish - you run back to God. You are in a much better place then Tony - in Gods arms.
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Post by Mary H on Mar 18, 2016 15:29:49 GMT -5
Thank you Sharon.. I know that's so true!! Just getting caught up in thoes moments, I fight it & want to be emotional & let them run the show.
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Post by Sharon on Mar 18, 2016 16:48:34 GMT -5
"We also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us" Romans 5:3-5
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Post by Sharon on Mar 18, 2016 17:19:22 GMT -5
I was reading more of sacred influence tonight and he talks about the woman who Elijah visited - he asked her to make him some bread and she said she only had enough for one more meal and then she and her son would starve to death. He told her to make the bread and her oil and flour would never run out and she did what he asked and she was amazed at first when the blessing kept coming day after day. After a while though, she got used to it, like she would be surprised if it didn't happen. Then when her son died of a disease, she was very upset, and Elijah took him in the back and brought him back to life. Then she exclaimed that she now knew he was a man of God and then realized how foolish that was. She had seen Gods blessings daily for several months, and only now she believed that God was doing a miracle! We have to remember the blessings God has given us in the past - that He has been working this whole time. He won't just abandon ship because we think things are difficult. He's going to continue to do miracles for us.
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