It's here

It's late and I'm ready to sleep, but I couldn't wait for tomorrow. I listened tonight to the Sunday sermon from our downtown branch. The pastor is the pastor of the old service Chris and I attended 7 years ago. He spoke about Genesis 21. How joy over the fulfillment of Gods promise to Abraham and Sarah was quickly overcome by Sarah's jealousy at Gods goodness to Hagar and Ishmael. It was a pure reminder of how I have been behaving with my friend Bri. That I have a husband who loves me, a family, and a home. Things she wants in her life and I see her wanting these things and instead of loving her, I was jealous and acted as if she doesn't deserve Gods blessing. She does. We all do. I am full of joy and hope. This message is one I have needed desperately and it is for me the fulfillment of a promise for our marriage. Chris had a spam person texting him tonight. He told me about it. I trusted him. I didn't check up on it or make him prove anything. I believe him. Y'all know that doesn't just happen with me! Our restoration has begun. God promised me earlier in the year that soon my harvest would come in. Not every day will be rainbows, but I know after hearing this sermon that I felt that jealous because a promise has come to pass and I was afraid and didn't trust God. But now I know. Chris is changing. He hasn't been cheating and I don't need proof to know it. I trust God. Please pray this week. Baptisms are this week and I was praying for another promise to come to fruition - that Chris declare to the world his place with Christ by being baptized. Even if it doesn't happen, I can't be shaken on this. God has changed Chris heart and he is not the same person he was.