Post by william on Mar 21, 2016 20:56:53 GMT -5
When I myself was fighting with my own emotions as I have said before, the world in me drove me crazy, in one hand I loved my wife and family, I tried so hard to be the " husband and father" I thought they needed and that I should be while in my thoughts and feelings I knew I was failing and failing miserably. I lashed out, withdrew, placed blame and them and others because deep down I was so frustrated, broken and failing at all attempts to "fix" our situation & made me hate everything, everyone, and even more than those two things... myself.
It was as if
I was screaming...yet no words could be spoken to hear.
I tried to cry but no tears would flow,
I wanted to listen...yet couldn't hear any audible sounds...
Broken, battered, bruised and lost.
All I wanted was to have no fear...
Let me wife and family know, I had the love to show...
The battle raged on and on...more and more rounds.
I knew where it may end up and all that would cost.
I could not...
I would not...open my eyes and heart to see that God was near
Oh, the love HE wanted me to know,
If only I would have just kneeled on the ground,
Searched for God then maybe all wouldn't be lost...
If I would have accepted Jesus died on the cross.
And because of that...everything, and all...
and I were never really lost.
Sorry for the rant, not sure where I'm going with the post. I will be praying for You and Tony...sister tell him I've been there and it's only temporary. One of the best song lines I like to refer to " son, stop fighting the fight that's already be won".
It was as if
I was screaming...yet no words could be spoken to hear.
I tried to cry but no tears would flow,
I wanted to listen...yet couldn't hear any audible sounds...
Broken, battered, bruised and lost.
All I wanted was to have no fear...
Let me wife and family know, I had the love to show...
The battle raged on and on...more and more rounds.
I knew where it may end up and all that would cost.
I could not...
I would not...open my eyes and heart to see that God was near
Oh, the love HE wanted me to know,
If only I would have just kneeled on the ground,
Searched for God then maybe all wouldn't be lost...
If I would have accepted Jesus died on the cross.
And because of that...everything, and all...
and I were never really lost.
Sorry for the rant, not sure where I'm going with the post. I will be praying for You and Tony...sister tell him I've been there and it's only temporary. One of the best song lines I like to refer to " son, stop fighting the fight that's already be won".
